♥ ☮ ♥ ☮

Your kisses like morphines.

2012-02-09T02:31:00.000+08:00

Just in an blink of an eye, we made it through another month.
Yes again without any arguments apart from a few small tiffs, which really makes me happy.
I have to admit, i gotten a bit more sensitive and paranoid as compared to before.. It's because you mean even more to me ,and I love you even more than before/
I don't know if it's a good thing or bad, because as i get more clingy as day pass by.. I might turn into a possessive person and start getting on your nerves.
I myself know I'm far from perfect,

I do not have the slimmest waist, neither the prettiest smile nor the best temper.
I am easily paranoid, cry easily when it comes to you, sensitive, easily jealous , and very stupid.
I will make you worry for me constantly, cause I'm extremely clumsy.
would you still love me despite all these flaws?
I know you will right, at least that's what i know? :p

You've become someone so damn important to me , that I really cant imagine my life without you .
Cause .. i know for sure it'd literally hurts like a bitch and every night i will cry to sleep again.. (been there done that)
Hehe , right now you're on face time with me, and i'm watching you dota.. so yup.. here i am to post this for you.

Happy 5th month my dear, you're the first guy I ever spend valentines with. ;P
I really wanna last very very very long with you!!!!!!!
I'll always love you , i promise. xoxo
Thanks for being there whenever i needed you, showing me concern i never expected , showering me with gifts and always , making , me , smile. I love you baby! Thanks for entering my life.
<3 we're gonna continue a lot of chapters for our story.

Hey can I call you mine ?

2012-02-01T22:53:00.001+08:00

Hi babies I'm posting from my iPhone. So pictures will be at the bottom ! I got enrolled into bishan ite events management. Though not really the place where I wanna go, but .. What to do ? It's not that I look down on ite. But who takes o level and wanna enter ite one :/ but I can only blame myself for not studying harder and being smarter..:/ but gotta look on the bright side. I am gonna start anew again in a new environment. It's not gonna be too bad either right? Gonna take O level again but only a certain subjects as private candidate. It is gonna be hard.. But I cannot give up. :) it's like whenever life knock me down, I'll still have to get back up and continue with it. Ok enough of my boring life. I'm gonnna start a blogshop w my friend Christina ! Well it's my first time doing a bs!! So I hope you all would support ?^^ hehe.

To my dearest bf.
Hey baby. We're hitting our fifth month in a few more days. So fast right. We had our ups and downs. And a period whereby we both air in each others life. We made it through all the obstacles and still get back together. And as the saying goes the ones that's worthy of your tears ain't gonna make you cry isn't true. Everyone is bound to hurt you and make you cry in some point of time and we are the ones who deem whoever to be worthy for those years. And honey you are :) I love you :)
oh my formspring always no question!!! Do leave questions on it. ! I will answer them ^^

Valentines

2012-01-24T17:13:00.001+08:00

Hi, as i mentioned in my previous post i'll do a post about stuff you could do for/with your bf/gf !!
I don't know will it work for any of you but, yeah. Here it goes.
Guys , DO get her roses and chocolate as roses are the ancient symbols of love and beauty whilst chocolate makes her happy.
And diff amount/colors of roses meant differently.
The popular picks of V.day roses are mainly, Red, pink.
Red : Sincere Love & Respect, Courage & Passion
Pink : Grace and Gentility, the rose of sweet thoughts.
Presents like Necklace , bracelet or couple ring/tee are simply adore by girls,
however guys should try and make something out of their own hands, a simple card or a letter, would light up the girls day and probably she would remember it for life, as honestly it's not a guys thing to do a card or stuff.
Girls don't really like expensive stuff , ok maybe some do, but most of them still prefer those handmade stuff from guys. Isn't is sweet? I mean like he look so macho then end up do so gu niang de stuff for you. Hehe.
So as I was posting halfway , my bf came along and helped me continued with this post!! So here's what he wrote!!
From my bf: "I'm a guy . So ya . Do ask about the ex gf's . Whether what have they done , Don't ask if has she done this or not before , You're leaking away a surprise that will blow his mind away and leave a sweet memory in his life . Even the smallest detail you remember about him , Its something that he'll never expect you to remember . Okay for the presents part . Try to change his fashion sense . Get him something he has never worn before . Let him try out things he never did . This is what my girl did to me , Asked me to get myself a formal , Now i myself addicted to that formal .
Make him something , Even a random surprise . He'll be touched . Although my girl surprise always fail cause i'm too smart . Hehe .
Guys top's may cost you quite a bomb , So ya .. Be prepared ! Couple tee's on valentines date worn together is dam sweet . You can consider that too !
Perfume / Bracelets / Watches ? But still i myself prefer handmade stuffs ! Its much more meaningful that way.
Advice for guys . Try to plan beforehand ! Don't plan at the last min . Quite a turn off . Valentines with no plans . Hmm . Maybe a trip to the 1st place you two met ? Or places like .. The zoo .. USS .. There's still lots of places , Just lazy to mention :/ . Make it as memorable as possible . Once in a year thing."

Fucking agreed with the part whereby guys should make the plans way before V.day or any special occasion. I mean like if you're too last min, firstly restaurant might not have seats for you, secondly everywhere is gonna be packed, florist will be damn busy to even prepare your flowers for you and last min gifts that was bought Infront of your Gf or the girl you wanna impress is SO UNCOOL.

Ok so here are some ideas on how you can spend your v.day !:) I not sure if it would works but it's just my idea and you all can consider it!!!

1. The memories.
You can invite him/her to your house (its best if you have the whole house to you two only!!) decorate your room, probably with photos of both of you? But close your room door before letting him/her enter. Firstly make him/her cook with you. I mean like its kinda impossible to reject your bf/gf on v.day right? Cook together , like probably simple meals like spaghetti or any other food of your own choice ?^^
After that eat together !! And while eating its better if you two keep on talking and have a lot of laughter. Do not give him/her the present first. Put it in the room and hide it somewhere. After the dinner , Blindfold him/her and lead them into your room before removing the blindfold. And then it would be better if those photos are from the very start of your relationship, sit down with him/her to reminisce about the past you both have, (I would suggest scented candles to be used.. It will bring up the ambience) memories will always bring up all the smiles and laughter I swear!! In the midst of talking and reminiscing. Excuse yourself for a little While to go take out the present(better be something he would like!!), and pass it to him/her while you're talking about the stuff that he likes(which is the present?) then kiss him/her and say happy v.day sweetie you're the best i ever had.:) ,he/she confirm will happy!!^^

2. The beach.
Bring her to the beach. After the dinner. Preferably at night, when then sea breeze blows and it's cooling. Make sure that you keep her warm. And one trick is to pull her closer to you and hold her tighter. Let her rest her head on your chest or shoulder where ever she prefers. DON'T EVER GRAB YOUR GF HEAD TO YOUR SHOULDER OR CHEST. IT'S NOT SWEET NOR COOL NOR MANLY. YOUR GF HEAD IS A HEAD NOT A SOFT BALL FYI. TREAT IT GENTLY. Common scene in theatre whenever I watched movie w my bf and bf will go like "eh see this bf go grab the gf head and put at his chest. " LOL.
Let her pick where she comfortable lying at ok. Do bring water and some snacks. Cause you're gonna spend the night there with her. Watching sunrise together. I mean like seriously.. It's the sweetest thing ever. I remember bf telling me he will bring me watch sunrise during Vinez's chalet. But ended up I got so tired that bf didn't wake up.. LOL DAMN IT!

3. The picnic.
Marina barrage will be the best place. Go there with her in the evening , make her sandwich( btw making sandwich is not a must for girls. Guys could do it too and it's a plus point ) or any other finger food. You dw to be too messy while eating when you're on a date don't you? Fly the kite and at Marina barrage in the shop that sells kites, they do sells wishing latterns. Those you write your wishes and then like it fly on its own. Buy those and fly it with her at night. After flying, ask her what's her wish and tell her yours. Pull her gently closer to you, look at her and kiss her gently!! I tell you girls loves pecks more than those French kissing-_- tell her she look pretty tonight and when she smiles, pass her the present. ^^ she will melt instantly.

Ok so that's a few plans you go do.!!
Idk if it will help but I do hope it does ?

Guys , WRITE HER A LETTER!!!!!! She will remember it FOR LIFE!!!!!! Really!!! Heheh.
And remember as you get her roses. Check for diff Amt of roses definition. And tell her the reason why you chose this certain amount of roses. Yah it's cheesy but it still works. Trust me :) hehe.

Ok so I guess this is it and .. I hope my post did help.
Here to wish everyone a advance happy valentines ^^ people who has yet found their match. Don't worry!! They are around the corners ^^
I'm gonna let you guys know how my bf and I celebrate our monthsaru and valentines together after we celebrate it!!^^ stay tune ! Love you ! Xo

Love is a funny thing

2012-01-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

Finally met up with my dearest Dada & Feifei Ytd with Huiyi & Eileen !!
We went to Oakham Market which is located in Chinatown !! (7 Ann Siang hill B1-01)
Their stuff are pretty but , wasn't much of my style.
Was about to give up.. till i found this sleeveless demin top which i'm wearing in the photo.
I like it so much that I actually changed into it once i got it, because it's just so pretty !!

Headed over to Wheelock's F21 and Branda & Eileen bought their top while i bought my white nail polish which is like .. so watery lo. Kanasai, thought their nail polish would be at least better than daiso one, end up lagi worst -.- Oh and dear huiyi kept MIA. HAHAH, bth her, While in F21, the girls was paying for their stuff, she wandered around herself ,and she didn't pick up her phone... LOL till we went coffee bean , she finally called.

Our initial plans was to go Bugis after shopping at F21, but cause of some changes , we headed to FEP instead. Bought myself a pair of brown booties and they're just so adorable..
And met up with baby, Francis & his gf.
We went separate ways after dada & Eileen has to go off :whilst Feifei & Huiyi doesn't wanna be lightbulb around Bf& I.

Had cheecheongfan & Mars ball for dinner, or should i say the only meal for the day ? Haven't been eating alot, but still so fat.
walked around with Francis's Gf while Bf & him went off to shop on their own.
So ended up, was walking around FEP with francis Gf , feifei & huiyi !!
And once again , huiyi was missing... LOL
But ended we found her again , so we proceeded to Cine, but split up cause the boys wanna go over to the demin store.. So yeah we split up , and then i was with bf all the time alr. :(
Bf took train with me , i cabbed home once i reached admiralty cause i'm dead beat and ... scared cause my phone is died and the bus stop is empty.. LOL.
Ok la it's a boring post. Shall post about some stuff you can do on valentine days for your partner the next time.
Shall end this post with photos !!

You're the only thing that kept me going on.

2012-01-18T01:46:00.001+08:00

Hey sweeties , haven't really update this place of mine, I wanna start a new blog, a new start, because things that are happening in 2012 is way different from 2010-2011 :)

Like always, humans changes. No one could stop it or predict when they would change.
Be it changing to the good or the bad, they still Changes , and it's inevitable.

I bet none of us like our closest gems changed into someone we won't recognize right..
Probably because we're used to them treating us in a certain way, therefore we'd show a huge reaction upon their change..
But hey, we all gotta move on in life too right, it's like it's impossible that they would be like before, what we can do is to accept them for who they are, and still stick by them.. right? :/

Anyway Valentines is around the corner, i bet many lover birds are planning on how to celebrate and what gifts you all should get right?
Honestly speaking , the perfect way to spend valentines for me is actually very very Simple.
All i want is just him, by me, cuddling together watching movies, at home.

and then just whipping up a simple meal together, I mean like, cooking together with your loved ones is like the best thing in the world, really!!
I don't need my guy to lavish me with gifts, i rather him spend more time with me, just him and I, together without any disturbance from the outer world, that's it. Ok maybe just some roses? :P
What's V.day without roses honestly !!
Don't worry for those who aren't attached!! Your Mr/Ms right are around the corner ^.^ Hehe just wait patiently ^^

So i guess that's it , my life isn't really worthy for me to update now since i'm like home most of the time, hehe.
Ciaos, stay tune to my next post :)

Happy 4th month darling.

2012-01-09T01:33:00.001+08:00

Hey people. Date now it's 9th jan 2012.
Later on at two , I've gotta head back to school to collect my results. I can't deny that I'm pretty tensed and nervous and afraid yet looking forward to get my results. Whatever it is. What's done is done and I can't change it. I do hope I can get a result to allow me to enter poly.. That's all..:(

Back to point , I'm gonna blog about my fourth month celebration with my boy. It's gonna be wordy. Photos are only gonna be at the bottom :) because I'm blogging from an app from my iPhone. Bear with me.

On the 7th jan, we went to the Singapore zoo :) it was the first time that baby actually went to the zoo. Hehe. So my dear boy met me at woodlands station and we trained down to cck to have our lunch at cck's hk style cafe :)
Their bake rice was splendid and yummy!! Just that I don't like it when the chicken is a drumstick. I prefer it to be a cutlet .. It's easier and less messy to eat! Baby order seafood &pork chop cheese bake rice. Initially my pick but I changed to chicken mushroom cheese bake rice cause I'm hell a fan of mushrooms. Hehe. Oh and if you all did follow my twitter, I did mention I spoiled my bf's appetite that day because ... When he's eating mussel I accidentally mention " this one inside not shit meh?" then he stared at me with his eyes like bulging out #ultimateWTF hahaha. And he ran out to the toilet and spit it out. I feel so bad to make him lose appetite but the Scene was quite funny so I tend to laugh when I remembered it. Oh and then again when bf went to toilet. The auntie ask me if she could clear his drink. I thought he had finished it and I thought it was ok for her to clean so I nodded my head and allowed her to proceed clearing it. And when bf came back he was like "eh where's my drink" and it was my turn to give him the #ultimateWTF face. Just that I didn't puke. I kept apologizing to him after that. But it was quite funny .. Ok I'm a sucky gf. After our meal we cab down to the Singapore Zoo :)
We went in and my bf immediately became a typical tourist , a cute one tho. Hehe. He keep smiling when he saw those cute monkeys running around freely and they are really so adorable. Then I dragged him to see the otters with me because the main reason that makes me feel like going to the zoo is the otters. They are mafucking cute I swear. Heheh. And we manage to see some animal scandal happening at the otters area. We saw two otters trying to have sex in public. HAHAHAH so awkward to see it but my bf was like laughing when he sees it. Walao I come so many times also never once saw otters having sex. He go one time and he saw. So freaking lucky??? Oh did I mention. My bf is serving ns now and that time when he's doing guard duty during newyear. He saw three dolphins in the sea. Lucky boy huh!

#BTT after the otters we realized we were walking aimlessly because we didnt get the map of the zoo so we ended up walking the same area twice ?:( then we go ask for map and start walking to our desired points!!

We headed all of the stations and when we were at the white tiger area, it started drizzling so baby was like "ok saw the white tiger*sneak glance and then ran into the shelter*" LOL of course he pulled me and run into the shelter too. Hahaha.

And we hide in the shelter till the rain stops then we continued exploring the zoo. It was tiring and hot but it was fun and enjoyable because I spent time with him and we both were happy!!:)

Oh and we went into the kangaroo area and there's one standing alone in the middle of nowhere and many tourist is surrounding it. Baby also one of them surrounding it and he touched it. LOL humji me don't dare to touch because I'm afraid that they might jump and attack me. I am a timid person. Hahaha. So when we walked out. There's this board stating that kangaroo can jump for dk how many meters then baby was like "wa they can jump so far?!?!!?" hahaha mafucking cute please. And he went and tried to jump forward and it was like 1/20 of the distance a kangaroo can jump hahahahh!!! But he's so Cute .. I love it whenever you behaves like a kid with me.

After the kangaroo we went and look at baboons. Another fav animal of mine. HAHAHAHA cause of their red hot sexy ass #justkidding !! And that area that keeps the baboons is a little creepy. So baby took this chance to scare me. And I was like " don't scare me already lea..." after he scares me for the third time and he said " okok last time already La ok. " and I believed and I got scare by him again. LOL.

Saw quite a few cutesy baby baboons fighting. Hahaha keep repeating "eh so cute " to baby and he also keep agreeing HAHAHAHA. Saw how the baboons fight for food and saw one of them being so smart and gathered a few to put by her side to enjoy herself. And saw a family of it too!! Ah animals are so adorable.

We proceeded to the kids world after we went to the toilet to refresh ourselves. And we saw all the fluffy bunnies and cute ponies &horse and ugly goats. LOL NO OFFENCE T.T I've nothing against goats but they just look ugly beside the pony and the rabbits. Bleh. Baby carried a rabbit up and omg they are so damn cute and fluffy and surprisingly they dont smell. Omg i feel like getting a rabbit too after that encounter !! Why are they so damn cute !! <3 we went into the house where there's candle wax statue.. But they removed it. Thank god they did because the statues inside used to give me creeps. And my bf scare me again in the house. LOL.

After te house. We went on the other parts of the kids world. The water playground was closed :@ damn it. Then we went and played flying fox and baby gave me the wtf sign after I swing twice. LOL and the second time the way I swing was fucking stupid and my face was epic thru out. Hahaha. And we played the river crossin or what. You've to pull the rope in order to pull your boat across the "river". Hehe baby was reluctant to do it with me but after pausing there for awhile he decided to do it with me. HAHAHAHA. We teamed w two other Chinese boy. Hehe. And it was mafucking fast because baby keep pulling. I think inside his head is " wa I wanna get over soon. This game is lame " LOL ok la I admit it's lame and idk how fun is it to pull the boat here and there. HAHAHAHHA. But yah it's still fun to me because I'm lame. HAHAHHA. Was walking in the gift shop there in the kids world and baby got two awfully cute tiger keychain. One for me and one for him. LOL ACTUALLY I FORCED HIM TO GET ONE FOR HIMSELF TOO CAUSE COUPLE MA T.T

Went to KFC after that to grab some bites before heading down to amk. Bf was such a sweet heart. He made me sit thru out the bus ride and he has to stand despite him being tired. So blissful to have him. Once we reached amk we walked around the cotton on massive sales and I can't find my size for that leopard tank..... Mafucking chio piece at $5???!? Fuuuu. So gave up on shopping and went to grab somemore stuff to nibble and drink before heading over to some void deck to rest our feet !! Had a little h2h session with baby and took photos there ^^ hehehe.

On the actual day of our fourth month was simple but fruitful and sweet. Hehe. Baby acc me to have my lunch. ^^ and helped me with my iPhone theme. Hee.

After that we roamed around tpy aimlessly cause we don't really know what else we could do. Hahaha. And we ended up at some tall HDB and watched scenery and we talked alot. HAHAHHA. And had a lot of fun doing nothing. LOL. I like it no matter how much we tease each other and we never get mad at each other and instead we love each other more

After nuaing at those hdb block and failed to catch sunset. We headed back to central and we bought curry puff to munch. Hahaha. Bf grew fatter and he blamed me when I pointed it out. Walao ownself want eat put the blame on me. He thinks I'm akon isit . 'So you can put the blame on me' #kLame. hehe after that we continued nuaing at some pavilion before walking towards the town park. Hahah. And it's at the town park when I realized my bracelt was gone T.T guilt level rises and my years just rolled Down while thinking panickly where's my bracelet. And my dear boy saw me so upset and he went all the way back to central to look for it and he came back for me after a 10 min search without any finds :(
So we decided to look for it together and went we got back at the pavilion , I FOUND IT. No words could describe how happy I felt at that moment. :') hehe and I kept smiling to myself after that. My dearest send me to the train station after that and we say goodbye :( don't like to be apart from my bf.

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That concludes my fourth monthsary with Shawn!! And yeah I think many are surprised that we could actually get back together despite that heaty argument and that heartaching breakup and we are still able to behave back like before. Hehe :b

And I'm glad we reconciled. Cause he's really the best part of my life and I don't know what else to do without him by me. Cause .. I gotta admit. I am always relying on him and normally with my exes I will never rely on them as much as I relied on Shawn :) and I never be as clingy as I am to Shawn to them before. Hehe. This shows how much Shawn is to me. And I really love him!!! I really hope this would last and no more craps would happen anymore :( part of the card& his reply to my card, the rose ,the tiger ,the photos etc are all below. :)

Side note :// wish all the best to all the Olevels candidates of 2010:) and hope I can go poly ah..
And I love my baby alottttttt <3

Sometimes it's easier to pretend you don't care, than to admit it's killing you.

2012-01-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

Do you ever get tired of trying and not being appreciated ? Because I do, I fucking do.
It's not as if i didn't try, I did tried fucking hard. Way more than i thought i would.
But did you see it ? Nope, you didn't.
So don't blame me when i stop trying.
Blame yourself for being too blind to see my effort when I still bothers to.

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Side note :// It's gonna be our fourth month :)

I just can't get enough of you.

2012-01-03T20:19:00.000+08:00

Hey readers! How did your 2011 ended ? I spent my count down with my girls!
Briefly update abit on my life,

On the 24th Dec , which is christmas Eve.
Baby came and fetch me from my work place and we joined his friends at town for xmas countdown!
The boys totally act liked kid when they were spraying people.
Had a lot of fun that night :)
Was damn memorable night , aftermath B & i head back to his crib whilst the rest went and watch movie.
LOL which ended up i think most of them regretted because they seems to waste their money cuz, most of them fell asleep in the cinema. Hahah.

Once at Baby's crib we watched "Gong Fu" together before heading to bed.

My dear boy keep snatching blanket and pushing me off the bed T.T

And he still got the cheek to laugh when i told him in the morning, but ..

It feels good to wake up to the face of the one you love in the morning , really :)
And we went to eat breakfast together ^.^
Feel so happy to spend the night together with my boy. even if it means doing nothing.

After that head over to town initially to get something done but the shop wasn't open!
then we went and eat together then head back to tpy then head home ^.^

In between i remembered on the 26th i met baby again & we had dinner with his dad & auntie.
After that we went & watch Darkest hour WHICH IS FUCKING BORING AND IT SERIOUSLY SUCKS.
Cab home after movies !!

Met up with my girls on the 27th , head down to take pay and in between something happened.
But we made up in between!!
Had Dinner at xinwang & played pool in cine ^.^

(OK LA I KNOW NOT NICE LA LOL)

Head out for steamboat with peijia, seeto & pauline!
Waited for them for two hours T.T Sibei long please, ended up i went shopping.
LOL Got b a top and splurge on myself..
Had a real filling dinner with them , laughed alot too. Hahahaha
Went to cine for pool again .. T.T
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New Year eve, I went over to tpy to find my bf first ^.^
We had our potato gratin together ^.^ Was fighting for the bacon bits because it's yummy.
ACTUALLY ONLY HE FIGHTING LO LOLOLOL.
Aftermath went back his crib , nua till evening i left and find my girls!!
Met them at DG station then train down tgt.
LOL ALL WEAR SO FORMAL ONLY I CASUAL T.T
Had a lot of fun though things didn't turn out our way!!
Last min decision to stay over at Cindy's !!
Didn't regret it at all other than my eyes are hurting so badly.
Stayed up the whole night and literally looked like a zombie the next day.
Head out to have our breakfast together.
Then went home after that. Everybody was drained and died. Hahahah

Bathed and everything i lie down on my bed and nua.. ended up i fell asleep.
To think that i still tell baby that i won't fall asleep and i willl stay awake till night time.
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That kind of concluded whatever that happened so far !!
Stay tune to my twitter for more updates :)
Oh .. and i do do adverts.. if you all dk.. LOL
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To my dearest boy :
Baby! 4th month coming already! We've been through ups and had our downs, surprisingly we didn't give up :)
I love you my dearest ! :)

& YAY I'm gonna be your longest gf from now on & also the one you love the most ^.< Hehe.

I am wearing the smile you gave me :)

2011-12-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

Hey babies !
I patched things up with Shawn already ! ♡.♡
That was really the last thing that I'd ever expected though.
Because the period when we really broke off , he lead his life, while i lead mine.
We didn't even contact for a period, but as all of you know .. my heart kept missing him...
Initially when he asked me for patch again, i was reluctant to, but ended up i still went back to him.
Well, he's the first guy that I ever patched back TWICE with.

He's really that special, don't ask me why he is, because I myself still can't figure out that answer yet.
My heart feels that he's special and so he is. Hehe.
I've lost you, not once , but twice already baby, I'm don't wanna lose you thrice.
Life without you was really living hell, because we two really had too much memories.
Shortly within two months , you showed me that, actually not all guys are the same.

Whatever you say, whatever you do, always manage to bring a smile to my face.
Honestly i don't know what good have I done in my previous life, to deserve you. :')
Don't leave me alone anymore my dear, Iloveyou.

I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.

2011-12-07T04:10:00.000+08:00

Yup, we've broke up , again.
I can't deny that i still love him as much as before ,and sad to say i still cry for him every single night.
Yup i know I'm foolish, he's leading his life like normal now, why should i even cry over someone who doesn't bother.
Nobody know how I'm feeling and normally i'd get people telling me, you'll get better ones, cheer up, blablabla all those cliche comforting words.

Actually , it did help a little, not say it didn't.. But right now the only thing that could really cheer me up, is still him returning.
Yeah i know i'm stupid, he doesn't love me as much as before(I suppose?) why would i want him back?

Just because .. i still love him.
This is the second time , that i ever loved someone so deeply.

And yet again, I'm the one getting hurt again.
It's kind of sucky because every time i gave my whole heart to some one they just break it like no one's business.

Every time I wanna let go, something just pull me back, telling me not to give up yet, you're still worthy the fight.

Honestly speaking, there are still a lot of question running through my brain,

Am i really no longer worthy your fight ?
Have you fallen for someone else?

Does seeing things that reminds me of you, reminds you of me?
When you see me, do you even feel sad to see what we've turned into ?

Well because if you were to ask me back all this question,
I would say, you're still worthy the fight, I've not fall for anyone else, Everything i do i see i hear reminds me of you , I do feel sad to see what we've turned into.

I miss you

So what are we now ?

2011-11-21T09:54:00.001+08:00

Hey , I guess you might read this post of mine haha idk.

This question has been in my head for long. What are we now ? Friends ? Lovers ? Or more than friends lesser than lovers ? Or just .. Nothing ?

I know I shouldn't be pressurizing you:') I know. I know I should give you more time .. But baby, it had been more than a week at least .. Isn't it enough for you to think through?:')

Right now, if you were to ask me be back with you , you know how happy will I be ?:') you know right?:') you've been in and out relationship more than I do. You definitely would know the feeling don't you?:')

I've never put down my pride for any guys before, you're the first. Happy?:')
Please .. Don't let me raise my hopes if you are not interested in wanting me back.. It's so sucky do you know .. Everytime my hopes are raised , the next moment ? It just got diminished again.. I've been hurt more than enough alr .. If you seriously think this is the best for us , I'm sorry darling .. But it's not.. At least not to me.. We used to be the envy of all, what happened to us ?
Yes I ruined the whole thing. I've been trying to make it all up. Everybody know , everybody sees , everybody feels it. So do you?:')

Do you know that I'm still waiting for your reply ?
Do you know that I'm still crying every night ?
Do you know that I'm still loving you?
Do you know that I still want you back?
Do you know how much this is killing me ?
Do you know that I'm still holding on to you?
Do you know that everywhere I've been to is all about you , you, you?
Do you know that you're still the reason behind every tears ?
Do you know that you're still the first person and last person and the only person I think of everyday?
Do you know ..?
:') darling , I just want an answer from you soon.. What are we now. Tell me baby. Haha..

It's painful Everytime I laugh or Smile..

Hey you

2011-11-16T13:05:00.000+08:00

I only want to be friends.
You don't make me smile any more then anyone else.
Your laugh isn't infectious,and you're eyes aren't perfect.
You don't have the cutest smile I've ever seen,
and you sure as hell aren't sexy.
I don't like it when you buy me stuff or think of me.
I don't notice when you come online, and I don't care if you say hi or not.
I don't get jealous in the slightest if you're with another girl.
I don't care if people say they hung out with you the other day.
My heart has never skipped a beat because of you,
and seeing your face has never meant anything.
The love songs I hear don't remind me of you,
I don't care if you're upset,
I don't care if you're hurting.
I don't care if you're mad at me in the slightest.
I don't count the times we hang out together, or the minutes you're gone.
I definitely don't reread the messages you send me.
Well, at least, this is what i'm telling myself.
But its pretty hard to convince myself when the truth is the exact opposite.

You'll never find someone like me.

2011-11-15T12:17:00.000+08:00

Unknowingly we've walked to this stage of our relationship, who would have expected all this would happened.
No one.
I've pleaded you to stay , but you pushed me away.
I said shits , i done shits , I've tried to salvage all that we have remaining.
People say i can get better one , but no, i just want you.
You can go on with your life , but I'm still stranded in nowhere, hoping you'd come and get me again.
I'm stuck at this point here, all the decision lies on you,
Leave me or love me still, you decide.
But .. let me know when you've decided.
I wouldn't fall in love so hard anymore this i swear unless the person is worthy of my pain and my tears just like how you are.

Never want Us to become you and I.

2011-11-08T23:06:00.001+08:00

This post is dedicated to my dearest sunshine , my one and only baby boy , Shawn teo tun Hua. <3

As you all know. Today is our second month and we managed to make it through!!!!<3

Honestly speaking. I didn't expect us to pass our first month let alone the second month (cause my dearest here used to be a Casanova :( but luckily he changed for me <3)

I am really really very very happy to be in this relationship. Readers from the past would have know , I used to be the one crying and constantly being the one that's giving in to all my ex and also had alot of unhappiness and arguments with them. But all the qu through out this two months. Baby and I had never once quarrelled. Which pretty much amazed me because I would have started quarreling with my exs after two or three weeks..

He's the first guy that ever bother to make a card for me , when he had never done one before for any of his ex.
He's the first guy that makes me so happy in a relationship.
He's the first guy that I really enjoyed myself when I'm with him.
He's the first guy who never once loses his temper on me.
He's the first guy who had never once complain about my tardiness.
He's the first guy who really had me going crazy over.
He's the first guy that treats me right.
He's the first guy that treats me like a princess.
He's the first and last guy that I wouldn't want the 'US' to become 'you' and 'I'

Baby. If you are reading this. I wanna let you know thankyou for every single thing you've done. You never once faile to put a smile on my face. The way you hug me. The way you kiss. The way you love me. Every single thing you do , for me , for us. I will always remember it. Forever and always. No one ever made me feel like this before , no one. No one had given this much security and love and happiness and trust. Yes I know my past mightn't be good ! And I'm glad you didn't mind it. But I could assure you it will never happen again. Never ever happen. I only wanna be yours. Now and always. This time round I'm really fallen way too deep to get up and leave. And even if I could get up and leave. I wouldn't want to, because I never wanna leave you. I never wanna see you hurt , sad , unhappy. Everything I do, i just hope an want you to be and stay happy. Now apart from making my family and friends around me happy, I also want you to be happy. Heheh.

Everytime you are unhappy, you can always see those stupid faces I took using your phone and laugh at me. For you even if I had to turn into a clown or whatever and you will be happy, i'll do it. Heheh. I don't know why also. I only want you to be happy. And if you only know. Your mood = my mood. Hehehe. Oh yeah. Today at woodlands waterfront. We talked alot of our things. For at least two hours ?? Hahahaha. We shared quite a few of our inner thoughts and am proud to say I got to know you better after today !!! And also finally get to know how important I am to you and seeing you jealous :b you looked so cute when you're jealous heheh I love you darling. I really do. Please remember our pinky promise made today. I will always remember it. Heheh. Once again. Happy second month darling !!!! I love you baby. We will have more to come <3 K3U

Xoxo , Yvette Huang Yu Jing.

You made me realized that there's really fairytale like relationship in reality.

2011-10-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hey babies out there <3
I'm here to update my nearly died blog.
Been busy mugging for my O levels..
If you all had followed my twitter, you all would know that i flunked my maths paper 2..
And i was quite affected by it, because i really did prepared myself for it..
I got way too nervous while doing the paper and i started panicking which results to me forgetting everything ..
Yeah.. Baby was such a darling that day, he called me immediately he woke up when he saw me spamming his WHAT'S APP.
<3
I feel like i was a failure when i didn't do my best for paper 2.. seriously. it's like i've put in so much effort and because i was nervous?
I forgotten everything and every single effort i put in was wasted ..
That feeling sucks doesn't it. :/
Anyway btp.
Today i head out to study with evelyn & branda and then after studying i met up with my dear boy for movie!!
He la dont wanna buy the tix for earlier end up we couldn't watch it so we settled for PA3..
Which was .. (N),.
After movies , he sent me home and he fell asleep beside me during the bus ride, HAHAH.
Oh yah , another happy news.
Our second month coming soon <3
Hehehe, gotta go.

In the end, what we regret most are the chances we never took.

2011-10-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

Hey Sweeties, It's been ages since I've actually blogged.
My life has been rather busy and i could barely find time to blog..
Anyway just briefly update about my life ;

I AM FUCKING SIXTEEN ALREADY FUCK.x

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My Girls surprised me on that day!! They came up my house with a cake and gotten me a C&K's wallet.
Fucken touched <3 Because initially i thought they had forgotten about my birthday because everybody was so busy please. Baby and i had just passed our 1st month <3

And he got me my birthday present together with my first month present.

Loving the necklace and the scrump he got for me. Been wearing the necklace ever since that day he put it on for me , and hugging the scrump every night to sleep. x.
On that day , we went over to USS with Gary & Eileen !
I TOTALLY FELL IN LOVE WITH THE CYLON RIDE AFTER WE TOOK IT. FUCK. HAHAHAH
Before the ride my face was ._. , and my stomach keep churning non stop, Baby was sucha darling that day.
Kept reassuring me that it will be nothing and kept giving me hugs to make sure i'll be feeling fine.
We had several rides and all of the snapshot taken on the rides was.... mutha fucking epic.
HAHAH, and i got so hyped up everytime we ended our ride.
And we went and have our dinner which is a mutha fucking big pizza.
Everybody was full to the max when they finished a slice of it, but poor boys gotta finish the remaining two piece. Heh.
After our dinner , we went over to bugis because the initial plan was to head there to sing K, but end up we didn't cause everybody was tired.
Headed home shortly after that.

091011

Met baby's mom and skyped with his sister together with his mom.
Love spending time with my dear. Headed over to Sembawang for dinner with my family as a pre celebration for my birthday <3

111011
OFFICIALLY SIXTEEN, AND I GOT MY FUCKEN IPHONE. <333333

201011

I screwed up my practical somehow.. But thank god , my ans are still quite similar to a few of my friends, :'(
Gonna mug hard for the rest of the papers. Update some other days about some other stuffs. My life is boring...
I love my baby boy <3

People throw rocks at things that shine.

2011-10-06T21:21:00.001+08:00

Hey all ! This week was quite smooth for me !
Withing 14 more days it's gonna be the start of my O'levels , feeling a little nervous about it too!!
Started my last minute revision ever since the start of the week, I know right, it's kinda too late to start now.
But at least I'm trying !!
I hope everybody who are having their major papers in a week or two times or already having them , to work hard now!!
Work hard now , play harder afterwards !!
I don't ask for more , i just hope to get into poly that's all! It's not gonna be that hard isn't it ? :/
And it's nearing my first month with Shawn!!!!!! - Jump in joy!!-
Kinda looking forward because my sweetheart had prepared something with his own hands ! Xx.
Isn't it sweet when a guy actually willing to like put in their effort to make something for you ?
I mean like seriously , I swear i'm gonna take extra care for the thing he made for me!!! X.
hehe, ok gotta go & mug now!
Goodlucks to those having N & O !
X , Yvette

Watch your back.

2011-10-03T20:08:00.000+08:00

A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but true friends only poke each other with straws.

Come on , face it, in life we are bound to get our back stabbed by "friends".
Smart ones will find out and leave the "friends" but the dumb ones will continued get deceive by the lies that are weaved by "friends".
Don't you hate it ? It's like some "friends" , they just make you feel so special , so wanted , so comfortable around them. And you thought they were your TRUE friend, and you could actually trust them with all your secrets and rant, but the next moment you found out that "friend" was telling tales about you to other people , trying to pull you down behind your back. So much of a "friend".
Oh B.T.W , I wonder if it's only me only or what, apart from having " friends " who are back stabber, I've "friends" who just know me to get benefits out of me.
They disgust me like seriously, i hate it when people start using me for their benefits only..
Hold on a sec , who likes being used anyway.
Thank god for sending my clique and my other really good friends like Huiyi , Tzemin etc.
Though i'm not really someone very religious but still , thank god, again. Heheh
Because everyone of them are just like the best. Ohh and not to forget my dearest boy as well.
I shall end my post here now , & Happy birthday to all october babies out there!
Xx , Yvette.

No words describe how much i love you.

2011-09-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

Thank you for entering my life. You've made my yesterday worth remembering and made me look forward to my future even more. I love you honey. <3
-
I don't understand why nowadays more and more girls are dressing more and more , skanky.
I seriously think , if you were gonna wear a translucent top or what, please at least bother to wear a tube to cover your bra....... Nobody like seeing your bra.. You wouldn't look sexy ,. you would look slutty instead. Pft.
Oh did any one of you caught Fright night yet ?
It was still oh-kay la, i rate it 6.5/10 .
You would like it if you're kinda vampire comedy fan ??? It's nothing like vampire diaries , don't get your hopes up!! & I've caught flu from my dearest and my nose is seriously like tap. Nonstop one sia...
Ok la fucken boring post again , i shall post about my outing with tzemin another day. xx

Disappointments

2011-09-23T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hey sweet hearts , it's gonna be a wordy post, doubt there would be any pictures.
I've just gotten my prelims results .. HOnestly speaking i was quite disappointed with myself.
I score 31 for L1R4 & my midyear i got 27 for L1R4.
SMLJ , no improvement but dropped alot.
I guess it really hits me and this is gonna be my last wake up call.
I really have to talk lesser , do more.
I don't wanna flung my O'levels , I guessed if mom saw my horrendous result , she would be horrified and shows me her disappointed face..
I loathes seeing her disappointed..
Need to buck up , gonna study 2hours daily no matter what.
study date on saturday with tzemin , hopefully my maths would from F9 jump to B4 at least( SOUNDS SO IMPOSSIBLE :/ )
I really need a lot of motivation now, Good luck to those who are having their Major exams now!! xx
Boring post, don't waste time to read.

Beatiful eyes for you ?

2011-09-21T22:03:00.001+08:00

( LOL WTF.)
Hey people ! I guessed that several of you are wearing lenses right?
Especially Geo lens & Eos ??
I've another blogshop to recommend to you guys!!
I understand that HSA and all the other authorities are catching those people whose trying to ship in lenses from korean , thailand etc.
But no worries , other than the Fashion lens which I've been advertising for , my friend she's also selling lens ,
Super barbie & Geo & Maxi & Encore.
Several varieties to choose from and her lenses come fast!!
I've order from her on the 9th september , and I'm collecting them tomorrow!!
Isn't it fast !! Her friend goes into Malaysia to get those lenses one , so i doubt the authorities will be able to stop them from bringing in!!!THERE'S NO NEED TO WORRY THAT YOU HAVE NO LENS TO WEAR.
Her barbie lens are selling at $20 & DAMN IT. THEY ARE 16MM.
Show you what's a 16mm lens like :P

PLEASE IGNORE THE TWIST I KNOW IT'S SUPER ACT CUTE. LOL
Super barbie something one la , can't remember.
Then i shall show you a normal 14.2-14.5 mm( couldn't remember what's the diameter )

Ok maybe you all think no different but actually is got, The black & white one is Geo angel grey(MY FAV LENS)
& THERE'S REALLY A DIFFERENT BABIES, In photo it looks similar, is cause of the angle lei.
Okie shall let you all see the different between 16mm & 14.2mm..
I look fucking ridiculous.

LOL i know right. HAHAH.
Can you see the difference babies ?? :/
A 16 mm lens would really make your eyes go fucking big. LOL.
(P.S:// let me sidetrack a little , I seriously love my knitted top in the photos )
20 dollars is quite worthy if you are able to get your lens within a two weeks(the most) & confirm won't delay kind.
16mm , water content prolly around 48%(PS :// geo lens only 38% if i not wrong) , the higher the water content is , the more comfortable it is to wear!!
Why still wait ? Hurry & dollify( i wonder if there's even such a word) your eyes with those pretty lens !! :p

http://wanna-bbeautiful.blogspot.com/

Buy more & maybe you could nego the price or something from her!! xxxxxx

Don't go away

2011-09-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

Finally ended my exams & gotten back a few papers already.
Most of it didn't reach my expectation, other then my science.
Seriously need to buck up on my combined humanities ..
I was quite disappointed when i gotten my Social Studies results.
I was expecting at least A PASS , yet i failed , again.
I've studied so hard for it and i still failed.
Was kinda disheartened.. Don't you feel tired ? Tries after tries , still not succeeding.
I'm not someone with great determination , I give up easily , I don't push myself hard enough , I'm very complacent. I seriously hate my laid-back attitude and I'm trying my best to change it already :(
O'level is around the corner , got this feeling my language is getting worst, gonna grab a couple more books from bookstores already. Oh and darlings , I've got a story on the way too !! I wonder if it's gonna be as heart tugging as the previous one I've wrote..
I guess i shall end it here babies , my post are getting more and more boring because I've nothing else to update already , any suggestion ? :)

Every time i follow my heart, it leads me to you.

2011-09-18T20:05:00.001+08:00

Hey sweethearts out there.
Sorry that my post are really getting more and more boring.
I've decided to get a job, yes and if any of you wonder why work when it's already nearing my Olevels.
I lost my friend's iphone. LOL , during the it fair , and i have to pay him back 400.
Cursing that mofo who fucking took that phone, see how you use in peace.
But thank god that job can allow me to work on weekend. xoxo.
Luckily life hasn't been too harsh on me, I still get to meet my dearest boy.
& i get to spend really a whole day with him yesterday.
Met him for ikea meat balls and also ikea ice cream cone. HAHAHA!
Was having alot of fun time laughing and talking with him.
AND WAHLAN EH I FUCKING PAISEH LEI LOL, EAT ALSO CAN EAT UNTIL MY BODY.
After our food trip , we headed over to town to meet gary & his girlf !
& caught midnight movie, Johnny english reborn , again. LOL.
My dear boy laugh every time he saw the poster of johnny english.... LOL. Weird much :p
After the movie , headed over to parklane with baby&co. Kinda fun hanging out with them though. Hehe.
Nua all the way with babybum and chance upon a fight in front of some bars there.
LOL the guy whose so angry came in to 7eleven , and when i saw him face to face , i jitao fled out of the 7eleven. LOL I was scared out of my wits, just kidding, but was kinda freak out though..
Roughly around 6 headed back to Tpy with bbum & co. & headed home around 9.
Ok that's all my life is getting more and more mundane.. Hasn't been using my camera for quite sometimes , and there hasn't been any outing with my girls lately , so yeah , bye.

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To whoever who doesn't agree with how i live my life :
This is my life and i have my own way to live it, so please keep your comments to yourself as well babies , if whatever i do , you all don't like it , well shut it. I'll appreciate it. :)

The truth is hard to swallow when you're choking on your pride.

2011-09-14T20:38:00.001+08:00

Cute anot this anigif ? If you're are wondering why the picture so small , it's because it's taken with ActionCam , the three strips down one and i've to cropped them out and then put them into anigif. -___-
But still cute right. Okay enough of the crap already.
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Life hasn't been too tough on me , which is quite a good thing!!
Prelims are up and my schedule seems quite tight with all the studies and stuff.
It's kinda hard to juggle studies with relationships and money -.-
I've been spending money on idk where also.
Is it only me or many others who spend money then dk where you spend it on because they run out so fast. If only money won't run out, how shiok can it be #FATHOPES .
Seriously hope i would be able to get over my O'levels soon and then start working and save money.
I wanna go bangkok lei , and I'm gonna save money and go there !!
Hopefully can save enough to bring my mom over as well <3 #GOODDAUGHTER
LOL , Oh b.t.w have you watched The Smurfs ?
THEY ARE SERIOUSLY SO CUTE. <3 <3
I caught it with baby & his friend , LOL and after the movie it seems like baby & i caught the smurf fever.
I kept replacing words with smurf. LOL. So lame i know right.
Gonna catch Johnny english tomorrow with love.
xoxo , can't wait to see him.
I know my post are boring :/

Give me something that will haunt me when you're not around.

2011-09-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

Hello my dear, something about you is just so amazing, thanks for being by me when i needed someone there the most. <3

Random

2011-09-06T20:22:00.001+08:00

Hey babies how are you doing ! Have any of you visited comex or not !!
Because I've worked comex this time round y'know!
Level 1 at samsung booth!! I chanced upon several familiar faces there!!
Oh btw i went to bugis yesterday to collect my camera from superhotdeal and they required me to post with the camera. LOL.
So awkward , cause my friend was at the back behind the person whose suppose to take a photo of me. LOL Nb i can camwhore all the time at home at anywhere still won't feel paiseh , but this time round they help me take photo I like sieh paiseh. I dont\'t know why either. HAHAHA.
After collecting my camera , I went malaysia with my family , did a little shopping there only :(
Didn't buy many things, but we ate at the pasar malam there.
I was quite reluctant to eat there because i remember the last time i ate in malaysia's pasar malam i laosai for three days & yes i was on a family trip in KL back then.

But thank god the food there WAS CONSIDERED CLEAN and i DIDN'T LAOSAI this time.
HAHAHAH *YAY*
Seriously their food taste so much better than singapore's pasar malam please.
SG one like so boring , always the same kind.
Over in malaysia, they have variety of food for you to choose from, especially their crispy peanut pancake is definitely a die for.
I seriously love food , and that explains my ball size. :(
Alright shan't bore you out with this crap post already i bet this post gonna have a few boring ticks. :/
GOING CHOMPCHOMP TOMORROW WITH MY BBGS <3 Love it.
hehehe Food food food come to mommy.
kthxbai, oh readers please tell me where can i get lens now :( online.
I desperately need them...

What am i suppose to do ,when the best part of me was always you.

2011-08-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

Dear guys out there, say only what you mean , promise what you can do , love with you all.
Please don't sugarcoat your words just to make her happy for a moment and then leave her all by herself.
To pick up all those shattered pieces of her heart.
Please treat a girl right, never treat her as your emotional bin , whenever you're unhappy you throw tantrum at her , you're happy , you treat her like a princess.
It'll only install fear in her.
Every girl likes to be prioritize , like to be dote, like to be listened , like to be love.
Please do your job right and treat her well , if not don't grumble when someone else come and took over your job !!!

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CRAP POST.

Meow

2011-08-24T16:55:00.001+08:00

Hello my dearest readers who have been following or reading my blog ever since I've started blogging.
I used to be a FAT KID during my secondary 1 -2 period.
I Swear i was as fat as a pig in the past. LOL.

SADLY The red one is me. LOL
I remember that time i just rebond my hair, i think i weigh about 65+/- LOLOL
And i was only .. 153-154 -.-
Yes and there's more.

WAHPIANG EH LOL *SMACKHEADx10000000000*
i still have that shirt , now i wear jitao is loose one sia.
LOLOL LAST TIME IS LIKE TIGHT LIKE FUCK ONE PLEASE OMFG HAHAHAH OMG.

TELL ME WHAT KIND OF FACE IS THIS HAHAH WTF.

I wonder how i find my neck in the past. lol.

Kill me please. omg so many pimple. eeeeeeee.
Okie , please see the changes..

Sec 3

No geo lens period.

FIRST TIME WEAR GEOLENS LOL.

Make up w/o geolens.
LOLOLOL WTF.

NO MAKEUP NO LENS.
OK LA THIS ONE QUITE CUTE LA LOLOLOL FUCK SO SHAMELESS.

LOLOLOL @ MY MOUTH.

No Geo lens , with make up.

Okie , enough of sec 3 , let's go to sec 4.

Hi babies , do you remember this ? LOL this is the unedited one.
PLEASE SEE HOW HEAVY MY EYEBAG WAS & STILL IS.

My all time favourite lens ; Geo angel grey. xoxo.
This photo is not edited.

Without make up , with lens.

LOL my hair was curled because i tied bun, okie how do i look in curls ? ;)

Please see how much i've grown.
Actually when i looked back at my archives , i read through my old blog.
there you go(i bet many of you will laugh at my past please because i laugh at it too.
I can't believe i used to be so childish, used to be so fat & ugly (Although now still fat and ugly but better already please nb look at my sec 2 face -.-).
LOL , prolly is what they say, 女大十八變!!!
HAHA it mean as a girl grow older , she will turn pretty ??? I think ?? LOL.
I not very sure if i gave the correct translation or not.
Honestly speaking readers , if i still look like how i look in sec 1-2 , i doubt you would even bother reading my blog or follow me on twitter or stalking me. hehe.
Isn't it true ? :)
Ok , so that's all!! I hope this post sort of entertain you.
Prolly as you were browsing thru my sec 2 photos , you will go " WAHPIANG YVETTE SO UGLY AND FAT SIA LAST TIME " i dk la. LOLOL.
I SWEAR THOSE PHOTOS I POST ARE ALL ME ME AND ME.
Kthxbai , stay tune :)

Imperfect.

2011-08-21T13:26:00.000+08:00

Hi i didn't edit this picture okie, this was taken on racial harmony day!!

Sitting partner from 1e2'08 - 2e2'09 !

Fengqing & I !! Superbestie ???!?!? HAHA!
&; i know i look damn different without make up.

Okie and i'm short and fat i know that. Last picture. LOL Wilson & I.

NB LOOK AT THE HEIGHT DIFF. LOL.
OKIE BYE <3
Hey people i need your help again !!
First like http://www.facebook.com/superhotdeal
And then my photo !!
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=246255928740515&set=a.243769092322532.67146.224387730927335&type=1
Thank you people!! it will only take up 10s only !! thank you in advance!! Help spread words babies ♥ !!

Just 3 clicks will do!

2011-08-18T17:43:00.002+08:00

I reckon that many of my readers are actually animals lovers or have a compassionate heart right !!
I chanced upon QiuQiu's latest post and saw This post !! Quoted from her blog " This is not an advert for any pet supply brand, it just happens that Purina is running a campaign.

And by liking their facebook page, and then click to select which of the four shelters you'd like to donate the food to, you can donate a bowl of food to that particular shelter!!! "
After reading her blog post , I've a urge to share this thing with all of you , to raise your awareness.
Those animals living in those shelters are really poor thing, either abandon animals or stray animals..
This shelters are unprofitable , they really depends alot on the volunteers who brings food for the animals or donations from certain organization.
All you need is just like the page and
then three clicks!
Click to send a bowl then ,select for cats or dogs and to select shelter
http://www.facebook.com/PetsPlacePurina?sk=app_227634413924530
Help those sheltered animals to fill their tummy with just 3 clicks!!
Spread words ! Raise awareness !! xx.

Sometimes the feelings you really mean are found in the letters which you write and never send.

2011-08-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

" 我只是个女孩。我希望有人疼，有人爱，有人包容，有人让我撒娇，有人可以吃我做的饭，有人会说我很乖，有人能陪在我身边，有人能在过马路时拉着我的手，有人能给我安全感，有人喜欢带我逛街，穿高跟鞋走累了能有个人背。我只是个女孩，想要的并不多。"

Hey babies it's been awhile I haven't update my blog huh.
hahaha, recently life hasn't been too bad on me, I've met a few good buddies.
Lol even though they are of opposite sex, but they are nicer to talk to and hang out with.
However my clique is still the best <3 With tons of inside jokes and stuff , just by thinking of all the memories we all had together , i can smile. Heheh3x.
Right now , all my male friend will only be friends, they don't give me any special feeling. I like having male friends , because they are easier to talk to!! I don't know why but yeah~
Gtg :)

Memories hurt.

2011-08-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

I've should have know that if i were to hold on to those memories , the one that will be hurting the most will be me. But i can't stop myself from remembering our memories especially when it seems like everywhere around me has our memories..
Everywhere i've been to reminds me of him, the bus stops , the walk , etc.
They just bring me back to the past. It somehow hurts, even though i often say it doesn't bother me at all.
Although i always say that i'm okay when deep down i'm not at all.
Yesterday when i was feeling very uncomfortable , i started to miss him even more.
I missed how i could actually rely and sa jiao to him , get his attention , get him to dote me even more, get him to treat me like a princess.
I miss having someone to rely on..
However , I've chose to break up with him, it's my own decision , my choice.
I shouldn't regret it.. No matter how much it hurts , i also cannot regret , i won't look back.
Just hope that after a long period of time separated , when we both actually think through between our problems , and maybe start over again.. I don't know .. Let see if there's still fate between us or not..
Prolly there will be and we will really start all over again.. Arguments really made me scared , made me afraid to speak up , arguments often sours our relationship .. And it's hurting to hold on too .. I'm not those kind of girl who can always swallow the pride and give in.. Sigh.

I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.

2011-08-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hey babies , It's been awhile since i've update my blog huh :(
I've just broke up, well this decision was hard on me.
I can't deny the fact that i'm still in love with him, but i won't wanna patch back.
Arguing stands a major part of this relationship,
It kinda hurts when i'm typing this.
gtg.

True friends stays.

2011-07-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

" A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else. "
I've became more and more sentimental as i get older.
Today when i said i wanna build a wall around my heart , my emotions so that i won't feel any pain and fear no tears.
My girls replied me and whatever they've said really touched me.
I'm really very glad that i've them in my life.. And we began to start talking alot on twitter , all of it was quite emotional.. I guess ?
haha , while talking to my girls on twitter , i decided to dedicate a post for my girls. <3 So here it goes.

Our first group photo @ marina barrage.

Our second group photo @ marina barrage.
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We've known each other from P6.
We've grown alot together , she's was the one who told me "I'm still here" when i told her i feel so left out.
That line still stays in my heart, that's why whenever i needed someone , the first person i would wanna talk to would be her.We argued once when we were p6, and ended up with a cold war of 3months.
Thanks to one of our "ex"(idk even if it counted as one HAHA) , we patched and made up.
ever since that day , we two were cannot be separated.
I was seen every where with her , we laughed we had our own inside jokes , bby you still rmb n2p ipoke-alvinezbackside.blogspot.com etc? *winks*
Hahaha so much we have together as we grow, but at the same times , we two start to distant unknowingly.
We start to keep secrets from one another instead of doing the usual sharing.
I'm sorry because i was the one who started it first, with all the wall building up around my emotions.
Sorry my dearest, i know you've tried several times to break into it, but i wouldn't let you.
So in the end you too had a wall around you , and now i also had problem entering it..
My dear girl , for you i'm willing to let down my guard, let you in. Because i know , you would still love me even if i ain't perfect.

I've once promised you i'll be your pillar of strength , mark my words , i will always be your pillar of strength.
I promised i won't let you get hurt in anyway because it would hurt me even more to see you getting hurt.
As we grow older , arguments start to surface among us , but as usual we would just make up and be fine the next time. But bby you know how much it ache to argue with you ? It hurts alot actually.

You know you are the most important girl to me , i've cried umpteen times for our friendship even more than any of my relationship because i treasure you more than them. Baby , it's not the first time i actually dedicated something for you right <3 hahaha remember this ? Hahahah! I could have go on forever about how wonderful you are.And baby I really have to apologised to you , sorry for saying mean things about you to other people in the past , i'm so sorry because sometimes i actually got too angry and couldn't think properly, you know right? :P My temper was so sucky in the past right !

Hahah, Alright baby , No matter what is , what would , what had happen , you will still be my best friend , for life. We used to think of names for our future kids and promised to be god mom for one another's kid <3 remember ? Hahah I love you alvinez teo shao yan, i will always love and cherish what we have and had. <3 Always here for you , i promise you.
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Hey there my sweetest girl , still remember the first time i met you?
We watched movie together !! Sorry bby forgive me i've forgotten what movie we've watched..
But i remember that day , after movie , we went to the washroom , and then you can't seems to flush the toilet but after i went in , the toilet can flush. HAHAHA! Still remember anot?
You told me starting you actually dw to talk much with me but after you realized how friendly i am then you start talking to me :P
We met the second time while shopping at flea, you joined me & vinez & rhys with elena !!
Correct ? And then since that day you've been telling me you're meinv etc. HAHA
I Still rmb i saved your contact as cindy chiobu..

It is still cindy chiobu in my phone okie. Hahaha ! With you around , everything seems happy fun , you made me feel comfortable around you , made me feel it's fine to open up to you.
You too opened up to me about several things , that i sworn i would never tell.
Baby thanks for being the impartial one , you always gave me advice that really helps alot.
Not to mention those times when i was feeling low , you came and gave me some comfort.
I really appreciates your comforts , how you bring smile into my life my dearest.
I enjoyed making fun about others with you , you with your quirky ideas always make me laugh till tears formed around my eyes. Haha , as i was typing this for you i was laughing and i realized , every single memories with you is always happy and fun filled one. No sad memories with you before. You're really my happy pill , i love you baby girl. I promise i will be there for you like how you are for me dearest. <3
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Hello bbywen ! *hoihoi*
HAHAHAH, i'm really grateful that despite how bad i was to you in the past ,you still treat as your good friend.
Thanks a lot , although you always say i ball but i know you love me right. ( I DONT CARE YOU LOVE ME OR NOT , I SAY YOU LOVE MEANS YOU LOVE. HEHE) LOL
I know i used to have a very bad and sucky attitude and i used to take you for granted.
Thanks for forgiving me and still being my friends.
with you , i also feel very comfortable and i really love hanging out with you because with you i can laugh like crazy and still buay paiseh one. Cause i know you will be laughing with me most of the times... Cause i kr. My jokes sometimes very lame.
LOLOL. we had our own insides jokes , a couple of phone chats recently , and every time there's bound to be laughter in between.

I really love how caring and sweet you were at times, bby , i promised you i will be your warrior , protecting you from any troubles or anythings , i'll fulfill it one !! I promise you , i'll let you in my heart some way some what, because i know you wouldn't mind how i would turn in to , neither will i.
I promised i would listen to your troubles if you need a listening ear. I promised i will treat you right. I promised i will try to make you laugh all the time. I promised i will be your friend till the end !!! <3 Loving you always <3 <3
"Friends are like a good bra, supportive, hard to find, and always close to your heart!" Good bra friend ! (Y) HAHAHAH! It's really amazing how we become such close friends within two years, and our bonds will never be separated !!
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(LOL PLEASE IGNORE MY FACE IT'S WHEN I WAS SEC 3 )
HI RHYS <3 <3 *Squeeze*
We know each others the longest in the clique right dear !!
10 YEARS LEI. HAHAHA
I know you since primary one.. And you used to bully me ,can you imagine that :(
But bygones are bygones , you're my good friend now !!
I'm sorry i used to still hold grudges against you , forgive me alrights !
I know you will always be there , just like how i will.
Sorry dear i realized we dont take much photo together whenever we're out :(

Will make it up to you the next time i sees you okie my dearest girl <3
See you soon baby <3
I will forever remember what you did when you was drunk. HAHA!
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Yo Peijia !
I love your jellys <3 LOL suddenly craving for it. Hahahaha!
The first impression you gave to me was a stern/fierce/Youwouldnotwannamesswithme that kind of look.
LOL But after i get to know you i know you actually someone very caring and sweet and at times funny person.
HAHA! Thanks for helping me with taking care of the girls when they get drunk and outta hands, appreciates it <3 And thank you for standing by me when you see someone being rude to me or being ridiculous towards me! Thanks alot. You're just like my elder sister somehow.. LOL .. you made me feel protected.. LOLOLOL
I love you la peijia , really i do!!! Thanks for being my friend , and i really hope we two will be closer next time <3 Love you , and i'll be here if you needed someone , i know i'm not as close with you as compared as the rest !! But we will be in the future right! Love si ni.
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Ending this post with my epic face here. <3 I hope my girlfriends will get touched by whatever i've wrote for them <3

If i were a boy i would know how to treat my girl right ,hold them tight and never let them cry.

2011-07-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

Happy one monthsary my dearest <3

What is me w/o you

2011-07-05T21:59:00.001+08:00

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What is me w/o you

2011-06-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

Hearts live through emotions and relationships. These are the children of the deck, often maintaining a youthful exuberance even into later years. The positive Heart is friendly and affectionate; the negative Heart is self-indulgent or flirtatious. Hearts excel in people-oriented careers. They make good nurses, teachers and counselors, as well as artists and musicians.

Clubs are creative and experience life through talking and learning. As the students of the deck, Clubs are curious, always thinking, and love to talk, read and teach. The positive Club is brilliant and well-informed; the negative Club can be a dishonest know-it-all. Great careers for Clubs include teaching, writing, law and journalism.

Diamonds are on the planet to clarify values. Diamonds like to spend money and like nice things. As the adults of the deck, Diamonds can’t stand being told what to do. Diamonds on a positive path are generous and philanthropic. The negative-minded Diamond can be greedy or miserly. Careers for the diamond person include banking, investing, politics, retail or merchandising, producing and big-business.

Spades are confident, strong-willed and wise. Even when they are young, Spades will often act more mature than their age. These are the workers of the deck. Spades are more interested in doing their jobs well than talking about them or becoming too emotionally involved with others. Spades can be stubborn and don’t like it when others try to control them. Spades find satisfaction in careers in construction (building), broadcasting and health care. And, as the symbol of “transformation,” Spades can also be successful in industries that deal with death or dying, and mysticism.

The numbers

The “odd” (active) numbers represent a person who is restless, on the go, and thrives on change.

The “even” (receptive) numbers are balanced and logical, attracting things and people to them.

Ace (One) is ambitious, active and driven. You are a self-starter who is excited to experience all that life has to offer. As a “One,” you may sometimes appear self-centered.

Two is sensitive, logical and comfortable in partnerships because you enjoy having someone to talk to, or bounce ideas off of. Avoid being insincere or becoming too dependent on the opinions of others.

Three is curious, restless and enjoys trying new things. You are extremely creative, so channel your gifts in a positive way to avoid worry and indecision.

Four is fortunate, organized and efficient. You are a hard-worker and good at bringing people and plans together. Avoid stubbornness or being small-minded.

Five is adventurous, restless, and hates routine or anything that limits your freedom. As a “people person,” you are comfortable around all kinds of personalities. Learn to commit.

Six is easygoing, peaceful and fair. You prefer to avoid confrontation, but won’t hesitate to stand up for what you believe in. Avoid stubbornness or falling into a rut.

Seven is the most mystical of all numbers. You have a mental sharpness that, when combined with your intuition (hunches), will serve you well. Have faith that you are being guided. Avoid being indifferent or skeptical.

Eight is the number of power and abundance. You enjoy attention and have special talents in the area of your suit (Hearts — charm; Clubs — knowledge; Diamonds — leadership; Spades — wisdom). Avoid power struggles.

Nine is intelligent and happiest when you give in and are willing to let go. Beware of being too overbearing, stingy or bullying.

10 is ambitious, capable and confident. You like to do things in a big way and may be obsessive or take on too much responsibility.

The “faces” are natural leaders who need to be respected. Even the Jacks, who may be less mature and serious than the King and Queen, need their talents to be recognized.

Jack is clever and playful. This youngest member of the royal family is creative and charming. There may be a tendency to stretch the truth or avoid responsibility.

Queen expresses power and leadership with compassion. Just as powerful as a King, you enjoy pleasing and taking care of others. Beware of being too demanding.

King is a natural leader. Authoritative, powerful, and wise, you prefer to do things your own way. Use caution when it comes to being too pushy or dismissive of others.

Joker is the wild card! A sneaky trickster who can take on the personality of any card in the deck, but most often acts like a Jack. Dec. 31 is the only day of the year that’s linked to the Joker. People born on this day cannot be read using this system.

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My birthday is on 11october !!! What about yours ? :)
I gotten all this from typicalben's blog :D

Begin each day as if it were on purpose.

2011-06-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

Nowadays life hasn't been too mean to me :D
Just that i was very unlucky to get send home on tuesday(FML)
I was late that day , was like thinking all sorts of reasons to excuse myself from my form teacher's nagging.
Ended up when i reached school , i got caught for my hair color and attire.....
I was sent home because of that, quite sad to be sent home , but at least my bed would be able to give me some comfort :P
hehehe , and thanks to cindy , i didn't have to waste money on buying hair spray. LOLOL
Oh yeah my dear readers , i from black hair , color faded to

Yes , this brown again. It's like within a month. :(
Prolly i should use the cheap black dye cindy use , so that it's long lasting. LOLOL
Knn scarli my hair like cheapo stuff then will hold the color very long.
And i'm really gonna make an effort in my studies now already !!
I've been holding back plans for many times , and i've got a new story in my head , currently still working on my draft now !! Await okie babies <3
Alright it's late and i ought to get some rest now , Love you readers , do stay turn , comment at my guest book or leave it in my formspring <3 !!

Are you the you that i first knew years ago?

2011-06-28T20:40:00.001+08:00

24/6/11 :
Babygirl came over my house and we played with make up. LOLOL!! It sounds childish but actually quite fun :p
Then we trying to act professional by doing our so called "photoshoot" hahahah!
Had a lot of fun in between , really love to have this kind of mini bonding with my bffs.

Headed over to Bbwen's place to play wii!!
Damn awesome , played boxing with babygirl & mario with seeto , oh and i totally sucks at ddr please.
They two kept on laugh at me when i'm playing that. sigh :(
Blame who for my shortie limbs
Left wen's crib and headed to Babygirl's !!! But left there shortly also because it's getting late :)

25/6/11

Day out with Yan & Wen with bbum & alex :D
I used to think that girls' outing will only have girls and no guys. LOL Sieh lame thinking i know.
Had sakae buffet again !! it's really quite worthy for the money because all of us ate our money back, wooh!

Wen & yan :)
We girls were uber late till those guys had to wait for us like half an hour or more ..
Felt super guilty and didn't dare to talk to bbum at all when we met.. :(
Luckily my girls pressurized me to go and talk with him!! If not i bet i'll shut up through out the whole day because i was guilt-ridden.

So lazy to edit away my flaws , (P.S:// I ONLY WILL REMOVE MY BLEMISHES AND EYEBAG I DONT MAKE BIGGER MY EYES ONE HOR) So basically during holidays , my skin normal will turn bad , i've absolutely no idea why either :(
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Reached fareast and walked around a lil before heading to cine :D
Wanted to find my dearest kwar but i thought she was with her family so didn't insisted the girls to find her :(

Okie , so this is alex, the annoying yet funny guy , kinda the entertainer that day!!
With his lack of knowledge of sio pa. HAHHAHAH.
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We settled our butts in scape sakae sushi while waiting for the guys to come over!!!
So we shamelessly camwhored in sakae , Hahahaha!!!

Famous in my clique hor this pose, pretend nobody taking picture of you.

Camwhore abit and the guys came , they both like so pig , LOLOL everything also eat lor.
Hahaha! really is eat the money back.
We laughed alot , and was happy that the boys clicked well with my girls <:
I really enjoyed myself , and got so hyper till i jump off my chair twice, hahaha! Sorry readers, photos are taking a long time to upload.. so it's gonna be wordy here onwards.
After satisfying our stomach , we went to scape's arcade to play bishibashi *my clique all time favourite arcade game!* It's very fun !! really though play till hand pain , but still worthy!!
Oh yeah i saw my friend kenneth there too. LOL So paiseh , he say i play till so chorlor. Hahahah!!
Said hi to him then left scape and headed home , had tons of laughters in the cabin that day :p
Okie so that just sum up my day out with them!!

So , here's my act cute pose, hehe , LOL BYE!

Happy girl.

2011-06-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

Life hasn't been too bad to me recently, allowing me to spend more time with my dearest girls & my bed.
And also someone who made my heart race. Hehe.
Prolly he's gonna be another reason behind my smile?
Nonetheless , my dearest girls have always been the strong reason behind my smile!
Hehehe. Went to watch ladda land with ShihYuan , Cindy , Vinez & Seeto on the 14th !
The movie was awesome!!! (Y) 10/5 !!
Definitely able to satisfy those readers who love horrors!!
Poor me covering my face through out the movie , a slightest creepy sound would send chills down my spine.
And Vinez like not scared one please. LOL I think the whole movie even if she scream also because i scream first. LOL.
Oh yeah Vinez & i watched ladda land separately from Cindy& co, all thanks to the super anal auntie working at Bishan GV. Thanks to her for spoiling my mood for that day.
So we two watched at amk cathay while the rest stayed on at bishan GV.
Wait I 16 i go back bishan gv watch NC16 movie ticket , then when she want check ic i drop it on the floor let her pick up ah, LOL NO LA i not so mean.
No picture very hard to continue with this post : ( Shall continue it when i gotten the picture from shihyuan!

Regrets.

2011-06-07T17:38:00.001+08:00

" One of the hardest things to do in the world is convincing yourself that you don’t care, when in actuality, you know with every fibre of your being that you do. "

- Runawaytrain.tumblr.com

Everyone bound to have regrets no matter what, you don't have a choice.

I have a lot of regrets , i regret not treating my friends right , i regret for not being someone better.
I regret for not doing well for my mid year , i regret for not staying committed , i regret for alot of things.

And who could i blame ?

Yes , myself.
But what's the point of blaming myself, things can't be undone anymore am i right ?

There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

2011-06-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the cock face. LOL.
Went out with seeto & peijia yesterday to town !
Had a lot of fun together , quite a few laughing session hehe !
Enjoyed every moment with the people from my clique !!
Firstly we went to bugis and i bought a top from there !!

For ten bucks , quite worthy because it's easy matching !!!
hahaha , other than that i didn't buy anything else for that day :(
Oh and i saw one of my fb friend there , she said hi to me. LOL.

After a mini shopping at bugis , we headed over to cineleisure , because at first we wanted to go to flea !
However , flea was so crowded therefore we decided to rest our feet awhile in frolick !

*slurps* Oreo crumbs had always been my favorite topping from frolick , but fruity pebbles will be my top for Yami yogurt !
I love yogurts ! Do you? But fucking exp lei frolick :( I pity my wallet but feel happy for my tummy. LOL.
Then we headed to flea, wahlao eh sieh hot i tell you.
If i'm an ice cream , you all no need see me blogging here already.
Hehehe, SO HOT YOU KNOWWW, i somehow wonder if i could cook an egg on the floor.

I bought jelly beans ! Sieh nice sia watermelon flavor , i must buy whole can of watermelon jelly bean , nomnomnom. Dark chocolate one not so nice :(
We went into neoprint machine , nothing to do , so we self take neoprint with my camera. LOL

This is my seetooo!

Mine, LOL sorry i selfish girl want to edit mine , then never edit my friend one ;(
Then our stomach starts to grumble. at there gu lu gu lu jiao , hehehe.

DongjiakJing & Dongjiakwen go and buy Best fries forever to satisfy our stomach , hehe!!
We both shared friendly fire, LOL wen still add chilli , i think she trying to make my lips swollen.

Failed shot - i was trying to take me & wen & BFF inside. LOL but sorry lo , my hand too short.

Second try - SUCCESS !!!! Hehehe !!

Last shot before we finish our fries - Sorry was trying to act cute. LOLOL.

I drank all my pineapple sojora or whatever you called it, thanks to friendly fire. too bad no mango peach....:(
I love mango peach , so nice to drink :(
After i finish my drink , my tongue was still burning so i decided to eat the ice. LOL
So this is how i look with ice in my mouth. LOL

After our meal , still trying to satisfy our craving for milktea. MIlktea ftw !!!
Had caramel milktea @ Gongcha,
At first the person ask me & wen our sugar level , we two look all around the counter to look for the sugar level paper. LOLOL. then she have to push away the menu to show us. So paiseh.

(pretend no one is taking picture of me)
LOL Peijia was still deciding what to drink , so i tell her to try gong cha milk tea.

Because that time i drink still not too bad ah the taste , then when i was trying to describe the taste to her ,

I said something fucking retarded, but somehow just come to my mind straight , i told her the gongcha milktea tasted quite gong cha , and wen wen keep on laugh at me.

Wenwen!!

Peijia !!

So after we bought our drinks , we headed to cine again , to bio tabor. LOL NO LA JOKING ONLY. LOL
We only trying to imitate those people always standing at the side there then look down , then they like bio-ing people ma. LOLOL.

And then we met Peijia's friend zen. After awhile all 3 of us was quite tired so we headed home !!!
Hehehe , quite a fun day with them !!!! Peijia wear till damn hot that day , weeeee uh weet.
LOL!!!
Okie shall end it with my cute face, no la fake. Bye!

Lexithymia

2011-06-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

Heyyo readers, sorry that i owe you guys this post for muthafuckin long !!
I went out with Vinez on the 21st may >.<
And i promised a fruitful update on the 24th yet i delayed it till now.
Okie , back to it.
It has been ages since we've went out as a pair.
If you guys had been a loyal reader of mine since the day i started blogging(super long ago though) , you will know that in the past , Vinez & i had several outings as a pair, but it's fun being in a clique as well!!

First we headed towards bugis to get some cheap bargains !
Sadly for me , due to tight budget , i didn't bought anything for myself :'(
We had fun shopping and kind of bonding for both of us.

Photo spammed while we both were in the toilet !
hahaha several funny things happened but i don't really quite remember it :(

After shopping at bugis , we headed towards cineleisure for our sakae buffet !!
Damn worth it !! I Swear.
Okie la , not damn , shall change it to quite, because some of the food wasn't as delicious as it seems or perhaps is i don't know how to enjoy it as much as you all might !

Yah laugh at my cock face. LOLOLOLOL (Y)

5 years of friendship , i would definitely hope that we could be bffl as well !
Okie forget about all this photo spams by us of our face !!
After we reached the Sakae Outlet located at Scape , We started camwhoring while waiting for 6pm to reach! LOL Yahlar yahlar i cheapskate must eat buffet then can eat my sushi freeflow.
I know right very auntie la. LOLOL.

Alot of laughters was heard when we was eating and coincidentally i saw Ahwei at sakae !!
Our first meeting was like this, Hahahaha! (F.Y.I Ahwei has been my internet friend for a year or two!! I've forgotten hehehe) Ohh and i didn't forget about my readers , you all couldn't go nomnom with me sakae sushi but i show you all the picture, you all can go print the picture and gobble the paper down also can. LOL FAKE I JUST JOKING.

My favorite though inside got nothing but got rice only. LOL Because the outer layer is sweet and i love it!!!

Fuck i feel like eating this now. Cb.

Takoballs <3 <3 <3 Anyway if you guys happened to be at Plaza sing at night , near the takoball stall , you can hear the auntie at there shouting something one la, even tako also got sales one la at night! hahaah.

Vinez's pick, we've one or two plates of this , fried crabstick... Not something my taste bud will fancy.

Disappointment :( Not much taste in it.. Unagi ??

Wasn't too bad!! Softshell sushi i think ? LOL

Tofuuuuuuuuuu~ Not too bad, those who loves bland food will like it !!

Forgotten what's that , but it taste (N).

MY ALL TIME FAV <3 <3

Feel like eating it nowwwwwwww......

Another sai sushi , i dk why i order it in the first place.

>p<

Scallop something one ??? idk what's this either... LOLOL Not nice also.. (N)

I can't eat raw food :'( These are vinez's

Vinez's.

Ah this is my last dish before our dessert. Hahahahah , was like fucking full after a few plates but like what vinez say " I wanna eat my money back "
LOL.
After our dinner , both of us were bloated hehe ! And i went to cine to meet Rynne!
Talked for a while , exchanged hugs and we left!!
That's the end of my 21st may!
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Headed to Marina barrage on the 28th may with Bihong & his friends !
The guy in the picture is defeng & it's taken by Jae , you can search him on fb , Jaee kido & do him a favor by liking his page ! :)

Had fun there with them ! :)
Kinda look forward if next time i was to join them in their outing ! haha.

This kinda my fav !!! All taken by Jae :)
& One happy thing is , i'm gonna go USS this friday with Bihong & co.
Look forward !

Screw Hugs.

2011-05-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

Sorry dearest readers , i promised a fruitful update tomorrow!! I promise!! Do stay tune.!

Commitment.

2011-05-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

It's hard for me to commit well , i know i'm definitely not in a position to commit right now.
But as much as i can't commit, i too wanna commit. Lol.
But the problem is i don't know why i'm feeling this way either, is there even commitment in my life?
Am i asking too much for being clear of what i want or what i need ?
I kind of starting to lose faith in love, everybody in this world is making the word 'love' losing it's meaning, including me. I'm really lost , and frantically searching for an answer to all my questions locked up in my mind.
I really don't know what to do , and please don't pressurize me for an answer of what i should do. It takes time.
Fret not i would not take very long, I'm just gonna think properly , carefully , correctly. xx

Dear readers ,

2011-05-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL DO ME A FAVOR , LIKE http://www.facebook.com/19th.REAP
ONE FACEBOOOK FIRST AND THEN LIKE MY PHOTO IN IT. MUCH APPRECIATED. xx

Maybe we'll not see each other that much but every laugh we shared, every smile you brought to my face, the memories we made together, is and always engraved in my heart so that i would never forget anything about you & us..

2011-05-08T21:46:00.001+08:00

In a blink of eye , we've already past 2months , 9days.
Sweet heart , i know we're not together for a long period and we've previously had a major argument over a small matter.
Do you know how much i detest arguing with you ?
Because every time when we argue , words are turning into dagger and piercing through my heart and it will start to bleed. The feeling of arguing sucks as well. Who like arguing ? :(
I won't force you to be someone you don't want to be, all i can do is to tell you what i feel isn't right and it's still up to you to change , because if you change is cause you wanna compromise and make yourself someone better , it's not cause of me then you change! Hehehe , but I'm glad you at least took the initiative to come and apologize after you know you made a mistake and hurt me ! :P
I don't need to be your number one , but i really hope i will be your only one , which i believes i am now :P
Tee hee!! I hope history doesn't repeats itself , because i don't like it :(
Babybum , y'know i love you don't you :) Please take care of yourself in camp, for i will not be able to enter there to look after you because if i could i will barge in immediately to take care of you, lol.
xx i hope you like what i've written here for you because it all came from the bottom of my heart which is yours ever since 25th Feb 2011.

" Memories "

2011-05-05T23:21:00.001+08:00

"Cause when you smile, the whole world stops and stared for awhile ... " this prominent lyrics kept repeating in my mind.

Tears started to well up around my eyes as i held on tightly to the photo frame that contained the remaining memories that the love of my life has left for me , before he departed from the world , his family and me.

He was someone that every guy dreamed to be , any girl's prince charming. He had perfect scores for his studies , well-defined features donned with his almond-shaped hazel brown eyes. He had a charming smile that would melt any girl's heart. Last but not least , his family was consider the upper class in our country. His name was Jason and he was also the basketball team captain in his high school.

It must be fate that brought us together , two stranger coming from two different world, and i was exactly the oposite of what Jason was. I was just an average plain Jane singing in an old cafe to earn extra allowance. The aroma of the coffee lingered around the cafe , leaving a sweet scent behind. Jason was seen laughing around with his friends in his basketball jersey. As he entered the cafe , the ladies' eyes just automatically darted towards him. He sat right in front of the stage , sipping his latte while continuing his chat.

"Cause boy , you're amazing just the way you are ... " I abridged the lyrics of Bruno Mars's 'Just the way you are'. As i looked down at my audience , i can't help but to notice those almond-shaped hazel brown eyes setting his gaze on me, my heart started to race. I was trying to avoid Jason's eye, for i know i would not be able to escape that black hole if I'm falling in. I felt a searing flush spread across my face and neck and i looked as red as a tomato. I heard muffled laughter and i know now the main focus was no longer the song but me.

Luckily my song was coming to an end and i had to act nonchalant to hide my embarrassment previously. As i went down the stage , I felt Jason's rough hand grabbing on to mine. I stood frozen and blurted out his name when he asked for mine.

"Gee , i didn't know you're Jason too," he chuckled.

At that moment, i felt like digging a hole in the ground and hid my head in it. Tears of embarrassment started appearing , swiftly he wiped away my tears and immediately apologised. To feel his touch on my face felt like i had won the consolation prize of the lottery , he even asked me out for a date! And then i gave a gasp and clutched my throat in a paroxysm of shock, wonder and joy. I nodded my head enthusiastically and exchanged contacts before bidding goodbye. He ended out conversation with his irresistible smile.

I skipped home while humming a happy tune, and greeted my mom in a chirpy tone. I headed into my room and realised my walls' color seemed so vibrant today! I couldn't stop checking my phone if he text me already. My wait did not went to waste, Jason called me and was surprised that i picked up so quickly. I was beaming with happiness when he asked me out for dinner. However. my happiness did not last after hanging up the phone , for i had absolutely nothing nice to wear other than a couple of t-shirts and a pair of worn out jeans and sneakers.

I was seen frowning over the dinner table and my mom asked me what had happened and i told her everything. Mom took me out to shop and soon after i came home with tons of shopping bags. Feeling contended after making all my purchases, i awaited for the day to come.

The day came, and i started pacing around my room and constantly checking the mirror to see if everything was in place. The doorbell rang and i anxiously hurried down to open the door , before that i looked into the mirror for a final glance. It seems like i was dressed for the wrong event because we ended up in pizza hut instead ot some high end restaurant i thought he would bring me to. I refused to removed my coat even though it was stuffy in there, but he told me that no matter how awkward it is going to be , he will be right beside me to accompany me and not let me face it alone. These few words made me fall even deeper into the pit of love. When i was with him even if the whole world collapsed , it wouldn't matter anymore. We hanged out more frequently and had common hobbies , shared the same taste in music and found myself laughing at every jokes that he said even though it was not funny at all. One day , the thing that i least expected happened , Jason asked me to be his girlfriend.

Good things was never meant to last, we were together for two years already. He was about to surprised me with a bouquet of roses after my work to apologise to me as we argued the day before. How i regret walking away from him that day, he was running over towards me , apologising profusely. Loud screeches followed by a ear shattering bang, i turned and i shrieked. Dropping all i have , i ran towards Jason, resting his head on my legs and begging him to stay awake. I Hollered , " help , help , somebody help , please...." hoping that some passer-by would hear my plea and dialed the hot line for the ambulance. Tears were streaming down my already puffy eyes and i heard his muffled voice through his heavy breathing saying that he was sorry for yesterday.

I hugged him and told him i did not want his apology but him to stay alive, but in the end he still returned to his heavenly home despite the paramedics trying their best to resuscitate him.

Today is his death anniversary, i knew that he would not want me to feel upset upon his departure. So i made myself smiled while wiping away those tears, those tears that he told me he never want see them forever. I realised that it really didn't matter how long both of us had been together , but how deep our love was. It was deep enough for me to forget everything i have done with him, yet reminiscing the love we both used to have. Our love would always be our favorite memories , had always been.

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I wrote it myself, and i really like it alot, because it was so much better than the first attempt of writing a short story previously when i was sec 1-2. xx so here it is , hope you enjoyed it ! I know i'm not a good writer , but it's the effort that count!!

Alone or lonely?

2011-05-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

Baby and i had our first dispute yesterday night , which totally ruined my mood :(
Lucky things between us got better , if not i will definitely not have any mood for anything :(
I realized i don't dislike people , but i pity them , normally when i say i dislike people is because they are trying to be someone they are not to fit in which disgust me , but when i think about it again , it's actually quite sad to see people trying so hard to fit in , yet to no avail. I really hope they will feel tired one day and decides to stop trying so hard to fit in and be true to who they really are.
I guess my readers will get bored of my post because all the time i'm trying to say is me , my life, my boyfriend , my thought(which usually revolves around the same things).
DAMN i need inspiration on what to post about already :(
Oh prolly i should type out my essay which i wrote and i enjoyed it alot ? :3 I really like that essay alot , not trying to compliment myself but yah , i really like it :( Okie maybe now ?!!! await for my next post readers <3
xx.
I love you more than i did before , 25th<3

Lies will never stop.

2011-05-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hi readers , i'm sorry for the lack of pictures ;( I hasn't been heading out or what le, plus my camera died and i can't find my fucking charger :( fuck it seriously.
I miss my babyboy :(
I supposed he's fed up with me for not answering my phone when he called :(
Damn it sia.
Oh well , recently i'm getting more and more serious in my studies *yay*
And i found out something that made me sho happy ah <3 !!!!!!!!!!!1
It feels great to have something common with my classmates :3
Hehehehe ! fuck my life is getting more and more boring.

Treat me right ,

2011-04-29T16:09:00.000+08:00

It's so obvious i do not have cheekbones that i longed for :(
Guess i have to live with my flat and chubby face for the rest of my life.
Luckily enough that my baby doesn't mind me :3
If he dare , i make sure he regret it.
I keep on side tracking , can't focus on my studies, it's really very hard to focus at home ..
Results in constantly camping in the library but like this me and my mom's r/s will strain cause the time i get to talk to her will be lessen when we already talk to each other so little ..
I have to admit it's really my fault for not trying to communicate with her despite all her efforts and i really feel very guilty to her. Mother's day is coming soon , have you thought of the present you're gonna give your mom ? For i have ZERO absolutely Z E R O idea of what to get for her.
Damn i guess i'm the worst daughter anyone could ever have.
Urg , forget it , i found this on the net , i really think that people shouldn't be so superficial and judge everything by appearance , it's the inner beauty that matters in the end of the road, the outer beauty one day also will gone de what, but inner will stay for life.
Here it goes :
This is to all of the guys in the world who can't accept girls for
who they are:

I'm sorry
That I'm not enough of a slut
to sleep with you on a first date

I'm sorry

That I don't smother my face in make-up
To look a different way

I'm sorry

That my boobs aren't big enough
to "satisfy" your needs

I'm sorry

that I'm not anorexic
and skinny enough for you to see my ribs

I'm sorry

That I'm not pretty enough
to be "your girl"

I'm sorry

That I'm not a Playboy model
so I can't act like a porn star for you

I'm sorry

I don't have a dream body
that turns you on

But most of all I'm sorry
That you can't accept me
for who I am .
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Freaking like this letter , heheheh3x.
and i miss bb alot, Two week , cannot take it also must learn to get use to it.
Because he will leave for thailand for some training in the end of june.. 3 weeks , no calls , no text , no him.
Fuck anot you all say. :(
Okie la guess that's all,. stay tune. xx

2011-04-28T22:01:00.000+08:00

Sorry i dont know what to post anymore i just dug out all the old pictures in my this blogger account <3 enjoy.

This picture just explained how i felt about bb sia <3 But it seems like a long time baby had ever send me something sweet :( *hinthint*

Wo ji xiang kiss ta yi xia lor :( And i think really damn sweet to go and see sunset or sunrise with the one you love the most!!!!!!!!!!

okie enough all this crap.
Have you seen how i used to take picture in secondary one ? LOL It's fucking funny and xmm when i looked back. But i really missed back then, because at least i won't have so much trouble and stress Hehehe , here it goes ! jitao got like xmm. HAHHAA

Gek bin until like bread. LOL

Gek somemore , gek gek gek.

Cannot maintain sia........ last warning ( quoted from bbbum :*)

Sec 3 , fuck my life. LOLOLOLOL WHY I LOOK SO .... ONE . Think that time i wasn't introduced to Geo & Eos lenses :P

YOU SEE THE DIFFERENCE GEO/EOS HAS MADE ANOT, CCB LAST TIME MY EYES LIKE FROG SIA, NOW I DONT DARE NOT WEAR LENS OUT LIAO SIA. LOLOLOL (N) :(

My best friend <3 See last time vinez so pure one lei.

Major hint for you already sweetheart !!!!!

The picture above is like so sec 3, why still so xmm.....

Just let someone know that you like/love them la :( If not you will missed out the one that you really love :(

Okie this is crap.
Sorry readers for such a crappy post because i dk what to post already. :(
Dearest baby , we ain't gonna see each other for two bloody weekends.
I've waited for the weekend to come , but sadly to say you won't be meeting me this week and the following, fuck :( Really damn fuck, you know how much i miss you ? how much i longed for you ? for much i want your hugs and kisses? :( Bet you dont baby, i love you , i really do. xx

No one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

2011-04-26T22:25:00.004+08:00

First time in my 4 years in Admiralty secondary , the first time i loved it so much.
xx , students from my school doesn't need to attend school tomorrow <3
Awesome much.
However this one day break i mustn't take lightly , i'm gonna start preparing for my examinations within this few days and i manage to make my study plan for today a success ! (Y)
This year is gonna be the year when i'm gonna take my major examination apart from PSLE !
I wanna do well , score well , go to a good poly with the course that i'm into.
From young i'm inspired to be a vet , and fortunately , in NP & TP has vet related course!!!!!
So hopefully i could enter any of those , xx.
Recently life has been so-so for me , neither fantastic nor dramatic.
And i fell down in Woodlands interchange today while alighting from my bus. Fml.
Lucky i used what cindy taught me, when you fall down , gehsiao nothing happen then walk normally.
But i guess it only succeed a lil , for , after i fall i realized my cheeks start to feel hot.
Damn , i hope no one noticed it other than the auntie who like ai mai ai mai help me up like that.
oh yeah and i called my babygirl once i falled, i thought i would get her sympathy and her consolation , but unfortunately , my bestfriend is a bitch , she laughed at my incident , damn how i hope i could go over her place and strangle her to death, oh well no matter how much a bitch she is , i still love her , <3 xx.

And i guess i've conserved more than enough , so i'm gonna released them all out for my studies !!!
Gonna be heading to the library most of the time , because there's a couple of reason why i'm doing that.
#1 : No distraction ( no hot guys , even if there is , my mind is all my boyfriend face. lol)
#2 : Air con !!!!!!!!!!! ( my mom think it's a waste of money to on aircon in the afternoon :( )
#3 : I could think focus ( Link back to first point )
Okie fine i just crapped this entire post.
& i love my dearest baby boy , hehehe , love him even more today <3 <3

I'll give you all my love if i have all of yours.

2011-04-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

Happy second month babyboy , we've made it through our 2nd month!!!!
Weee !!! We have many more to go right sweetheart :3
I know you are feeling unwell now :(
Please get well soon sweetheart, you're my precious gem. xx.
It really aches my heart alot when i hear you sound so sick :( Get well soon sweetie, xx.
Sorry that i can't be there to look after you, and i really love you alot hun.
Cause if i could i would already flew over there to take care after you :(
And i promised my boyfriend for a massage on saturday :3
Can't wait to see him and i'm gonna plant many many kisses all around his cheeks and lips :3
weee!

You're the reason for my smile.

2011-04-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

Hey hi readers , I know i don't look good when i smile , so keep your comments to yourselves !!
On the 17th April , my girls & i except for Rhys , we decided to surprise her at her cribs with cakes and heart shape balloons. <3 My dear Rhys , sixteen is awaiting you already , awesome much ? :)
And we had hell lot's of fun on the 17th , some pictures are in Rhys's laptop ,waiting for her to send me i guess. :3
Shall just make do with those i have.
Oh and life for me hasn't been that bad so far , i have great friends still , my boyfriend loving me more and more which is VERY VERY , V E R Y good thing . My love for my dearest boy hasn't decrease and it will not decrease!!!!!!
I really love my boy alot , no other guys made me love so much as yet <3 I'm totally not interested in other guys other than friends. No more than that <3 that's for sure !!!!!!!!!!! I really want this thing to last , damn my baby boy sure know how to hold my heart <3 weeeeeeeee ! I love him so damn much.
Okie shall end it with my face , cause the rest of the photos are still resizing and it takes bloody long to upload up here, so yeah ENJOY MY BORING FACE and CIAOS :3

If i were a boy i would know how to treat my girl right ,hold them tight and never let them cry.

2011-04-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

This is interesting.
Awesome's life is boring , and i miss my dearest girls , i miss every single one of them , i miss all the fun i had with them , i miss all the laughter we all shared all the jokes we had , i miss every single time we all had together. My dearest girls, i really miss every single one of you damn much , sigh. I feel like i missed out a lot on all of your lifes. :(
I tell you guys a secret i miss this girl damn much really damn much,

She's the best i ever had. <3She's so irreplaceable because i can never find someone so kp like her , but i love her no matter how kp she is <3 wee uh weet. She's one of those i would never want to lose, because it will definitely rip my heart into million pieces if she left, honestly speaking we two had so much memories together , to sum it all up i just wanna say this to her if she even bother reading my blog now ! Babygirl , i love you alot , we've gone through 5 years of friendship at least , been thru several ups and downs , and i'm glad to say that you didn't walk out of my life when i needed you the most. We've argued , we've quarreled , we've make up , we're best of bestfriends, we made up nonsense everytime we are together , we've shared secrets that only we both knew , we were as close as blood-bond. I just want you to know , i won't wanna lose you , you know it don't you ? Deep down in my heart you've already occupied an important place. I promise i will be there for you no matter what , if you can't reach me by text , you could call me up, you know my number don't you ? Baby i'm only eight digits away from you , 5 min walk away from you as well , i know i can rely on you and you know you could do the same to me as well right ? xx i love you so much bbg.
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I love my dearest babyboy as well <3 Although we've been together not very long , but i love you alot already sweetiepie <3 You totally melt my heart today when you called and say you called just to tell me you miss me <3 Hahahahaha Love si ni <3 I won't leave you one okie <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Even if the whole world leaves you , i won't leave. <3 <3 Love si ni.

Back your words up with actions.

2011-04-13T20:11:00.001+08:00

Hey sweethearts , having you guys been staying tune to my blog ? :3
Hope you guys did. - hearts for those who did - :3
Recently awesome's life has been good , more ups than down !
which is a good thing , and on saturday , 9/4 , i went out with my dearest piggyb & his campmates.
Starting it was kinda awkward because i don't really know them and stuff , but thankfully they are nice people though there's a few arrow shooting each other. lol.
But it was fun la :3 Really enjoyed myself and also enjoying hugging my dearest.
Hehehe, and i beat his score in bejeweled (Y) i'm not called awesome for nothing , y'know.
Though not the first yet but i'm somewhere there!!!!
I really enjoy every moment spent with my dearest babyboy , because when i'm with him , i knew i would have all of his attention, yes all of it.
Because my boyfriend will pay more attention to his games when im not with him lor, got a little bit de jealous cells working niaoz.
And i went out with my babygirls quite often too !!!!! Like we went vivo , we went town , we went marina barrage, sorry that i didn't update about our outing because of my lazycells :(
And it happen quite sometimes back, Okie maybe i should let pictures do all the talking , only one out of each outings i have with my babies.

(3rd april , vivo)

(19th march - Marina barrage )
Yah and so on , i couldn't find the rest. i forgotten which folder are they in :(
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And i realized i'm starting to slack in studies, which is NO GOOOD :(
I gotta buck up already !!!!!
Alright enough of my boring shit life. guess i'm ending my shittypost now.
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Hey dearest this is for you , right now , i can't contact you through the phone , it's kinda disheartening and doesn't feel right, cause i'm so used to messaging you , then now i can't text you i so not used to it lor :(
I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day. <3
You know something , i gotta admit is , once i have you i'm contented and i won't consider other guys at all,cause baby you're the best i ever encounter , you make me afraid that i would lose you , you made me fall in love so helplessly with you, so now i'm in this black hole , and i can't get out of it. No , is i don't want to. Because i can't bear to leave you . Hehehe i'm happy that you love me more and more as day goes by <3 I wanna be your favorite hello and never your goodbye <3 xoxo,

Why do you have so much to prove ?

2011-04-06T19:46:00.002+08:00

Hey all , obviously this is a failed shot of acting cute, and yeah i'm using w20 it's a temporary phone only la :( lol.
It had been so long since i actually had a proper update about my life.
On 25th Feb , i met this awfully annoying guy who made me fall in love with him so crazily, he's no other than Myran Brandon Pereira <3.
Recently i got closer with my dearest bbgs , @Meltedmyheart &@Cindeelovedieu & of course my whole clique.
I'm really proud to say i really love my life right now , even though i hate it sometimes because things doesn't go my way , and also because i'm short of cash always.
Damn :( I should start learning to save up , before i constantly become pokkai girl.
In school , my chemistry marks are getting better or should i say overall , every subject of mine are actually getting better,other than combined humanities.
pft , i can't seem to score in Poa & combined humanities , :'(

I guess after entering and leaving relationships a couple of times recently , i really wanna settle down.
But to be said is easier than to be done, so i just hope to make the best out of every single thing right now.
And i will have to learn how to keep you by my side no matter what , for you are really way too important to me. 16 years , i supposed i've lost enough, it's those small things in my life that gave me the strength to move on with life and not to whine and think negatively about life. Words of encouragements , quotes , friends , family , relationships , they all inspired me and gave me another meaning about life.
I'm learning how to compromise and be understanding and trusting all over again, because through out so long, i've been through so much dramas till i could literally write a story about my life which i've decided to, to write it out on my birthday to let people know who i am.For those who already knew who i am , to know me better , and to people who don't know me yet judging me.

I also realized , people tend to try so hard just to prove themselves. I seriously don't see a reason why also.
A couple of my friends they have been trying so hard to prove themselves ? I guess i gotta admire them , because if i were them , i would be emotionally physically drained. Like totally.
I'm starting to hang out alone in school , it's not because i do not have friends in school or something along that line , it's just that i feel not much people in this school whom i could really trust and speak about my troubles to. How i hope that i was in the same school as my babies <3 That would be wonderful because they don't like pretending games , they judge only after they know that person or both side of the story , they stand by me no matter what. All the time whenever i'm with them , i'm always laughing and smiling so happily. Aw , i really love them alot.

And as i looked back at my past and then here i am realizing how much i've grown , how scary human change can be , who are my true friends , who really mean it when they say they will be by me. Yes and once again , i'm proud to say that i'm really thankful for having my boyfriend and also my dearest girlfriends. After being together with him for 1month plus , really strange , but i found myself giving in and learning to compromise, he made me fear that i would lose him , i really cherish him and us. I don't want "us" to become "you" and "i" already , i want it to be US always , not you and i, and i'm finally okay with being us , prolly is because i really love him too much already. And i know that i don't understand love , but i guess Brandon is gonna show me the definition of love. :) I want 250211 to really go far, i'm getting sick and tired of breakups and heartbreaks , and being guilty. Alright , i guess i'm going to end this post right here. Toddles.

My love.

2011-04-05T20:58:00.000+08:00

Hey sweetie , you're the most important piece in the jigsaw puzzle of my life.
Words can't describe how much you meant to me and i really love you.
I love you this three words , i meant it , i really do.
Sweetie , we ain't together for very long as i mentioned previously , i love you too much already.
It's gonna overflow soon heheh3x
You can always make me feel alright , when i'm not.
You told me you will be mine , now and forever.
You gotta make me believe that there's forever ok, for i myself don't , so make me believe it.
I love you baby, 25th's

Smiling is contagious.

2011-03-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hello , i have nothing to update so yeah this is my msn convo with my dear girl.

click to enlarge.

Have fun reading and guess what i talking with her <3
I love my boyf and my girls <3

Hands off , he is mine not yours anymore.

2011-03-30T19:31:00.000+08:00

I just hope you will really put yourself in my shoe and think from my point of view.
Sweetie , you know you meant the world to me.
And i really don't like the fact that she's still in contact with you.
I understand she is quite good with your group of friends, so if you two chance upon each other i understand.
I really don't know how to put those into words and tell you.
I don't how to tell you how i exactly feel.
I don't know how to make you understand how much you mean to me.
I just hope this is just gonna be about US , no her no him no others.
For you are, too important to lose already.

Let's commit the perfect crime , i'll steal your heart & you'll steal mine.

2011-03-29T17:58:00.001+08:00

"Our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it.
- Landon, from A Walk to Remember

Hey readers , I'm so sorry that i didn't manage to update my blog so frequently as to be compared to last year. O'levels this year and it's really kinda busy for me as well.
I'm gonna be more active on Facebook & Twitter yeah :)
So do follow or add me up there sugars.
Life have been going smoothly recently , apart from a few conflicts surfacing again with the same person.
I just don't get it why some people can't just keep their mouth shut, prolly is because this year is their year ? Haha , for those who know what i meant then good for y'all. I learned that from my dearest.
Gosh , sometimes he can really make my heart melt but sometimes he just make me wanna punch him in his face. We've gone through our first month , and we're still together and counting on. It's kinda fast to say this but I am already completely and irrevocably in love with him. I've fallen too deep and too fast into this relationship, and i know it's gonna tear me apart if it's gonna fail. So i won't want that to happen. I will try my ultimate best to keep this love going on. I just hope we could go as far as we could , and i won't wanna lose him to anyone. I would never ever wanna live my life without him , he's just the second guy after Desmond who made me just wanna give it all and lose myself in the whole relationship. HOWEVER , i'm not trying to bring Desmond down , but Brandon is definitely treating me better , so much more than Desmond did. And BabyBoy if you're reading it, i want you know i really love you alot. and i'm gonna end my post here.
& i love my life so much because i got a couple of close bbgs with me & my boyf who dote me!

I just need to see you smile and then it would have made my day.

2011-03-14T13:26:00.000+08:00

If only you know how much you meant to me right now ,
It really amaze me, just shortly those few weeks , you got me so mesmerize with you.
And our paths intertwine and even if it’s just for that few moments, you left an impression so deep, so everlasting, that my life is changed forever and i know you meant more than what i thought you were to me.
I can't put my love into words for you sweet , because no words could describe it.
God please god , don't ever take away him from me , because he meant too much to me already.
I hope everything goes fine on friday , really..
And baby even if anything happened , i won't wanna leave you.
The feeling i had for you , is even stronger than my first crush.
I have absolutely no idea what will happen to me when you leave.

Bad week.

2011-03-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

" And when someone apologizes to you enough times for the things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them. It’s fearless to say “you’re not sorry,” and walk away. " ----- Taylor swift .

I'm like bloody poor this week please.

I bloody want that fucking heel and i'm fucking gonna get it , i don't give a damn , give me that fucking heels which i fucking long for ever since it's on shelve. :(
Damn it , why must people design fucking chio things to make girls fall in love with it and becoming part of our I-love-it-and-i'm-fucking-gonna-get-it list. :(
ARGH :(
Anyway school hasn't been awesome :(
Boohoo , this blew off miss awesome's awesome weeek! :(
However , my language wise had improved significantly , i think?

Yahlar you must be thinking i lie right , but no man!

my essay writing skills improve like a g6.
LOL , i know i have alot of tense error or whatever error here okie , but this is my online diary!

I write the way i like it :3

Okie la nothing to update , miss awesome life have been boring recently :(

I want your attention

2011-03-07T19:23:00.001+08:00

I went out with my piggy on 5th march
Gosh i got influenced by Teo &Kwar liaoz.
Kept oncalling my babyboy Piggy. nowadays.
Hahahahaha! hopefully he wont kill me :3
Went to meet him at bedok first then headed down to bugis , iluma for movies.
He's oh so annoying , but i love him still.
Well , we caught Unknown , which i would rate it 4.5/5 ;)
Piggy took like quite long to understand the plot.
hahahaha!! After movie , we went for our late dinner at one of the noodles shop in bugis.
Baby say i waste food , because i can't finish ;(
Well i dk , maybe my stomach shrink ???
If it is , then it's a good thing !
HAhahahhahah! Okie la i dk what else to write. :)
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I only want a little more of your attention , oh god ,what's happening to me. Please don't make me fall in love so deeply , not now please. I'm afraid i won't be able to get out of this love trap again ..

White horse.

2011-03-03T19:28:00.001+08:00

Shortly 6days and you already have the capabilities to make my heart want you so badly.
I really don't how we will end up into , but let's just make the best out of what we have/are now shall we?
And yes i don't understand love , and i hope some one will actually make me understand it then.

不縱容他　再給妳傷害

2011-03-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

I went out with my dearest babies yesterday <3
First they came over my house , hehehe to bake cookies!! ( Which in the ned tasted like rock :'( It didn't turn out the way i expect , sorry seeto , rhys and vinez , wo dont dare laugh at you all de muffincookie le)
And my dear kwar girl whose in the most of the picture one , she so silly!
She took 3 times 913 to my house still can lost. HAHAHA!
So funny , so me & my teoteo go find her.
Hahahah!

We baked cookie and i was the one who do the most work!!!!!!
However i'm still proud of my product <3
Though it's like rock.
Kwar , teo come my house hor like princess , i like dorota :'(
Yi ge liang ge bully wo only.
But i still love them <3 !!

Hahahaha !! Rhys came over and she helped me THE MOST.
LOLOLOL!! Kwarkwar kena say till she finally move her butt away from computer and helped out. <3
Teoteo went home first to bath then meet us later on.
While i proceed to take a quick shower again cause during the search of kwarkwar , i perspire alot, A L O T.

Prepared and my Kwar & rhys both make up at my house :3
Headed down to funan and yeah i gotten my job for IT fair this upcoming march , but i'm only gonna work during sat & sun.
Luckily i used to work in Digital asia once , so they are rather willing to employ me !!!
happygirl <3

After my interview , bought OCK on the way because i'm like super hungry because i woke up late plus was being busy all the way till i didn't eat any breakfast ,lunch !!!

Oh yeah my teoteo came over to funan to meet us then we went down to plaza sing to fix Rhys's BB!

* I wanna get a BB.. But i gotta pay it myself, guess i gotta wait till next year then i change phone ba Getting bored in waiting , Rhys suggested me & kwarkwar go walkwalk first , then kwarkwar wanna go toilet jiu shui bian lor.

We both ended up in 4th floor toilet of Plaza sing.

Because the rest of the toilets in different levels are super occupied !!

And then , we decided to go in to handicap toilet to snap pics.

* That day no handicap wanna use toilet suo yi wo men cai qu handicap toilet de! *

Ended up , Rhys & Teoteo miss us too much then they call us to ask where are we.

Hehehehe!!!! Hurried back and then i accompanied my teoteo to go toilet again!!

It seems like i was toilet girl that day.

Snapped a few pictures but i don't have them because teoteo never send me
Bought Yami Yogurt on the way back!!!
And then , my dear girls got tempted to buy yami yogurt !!!
But their yogurt love isn't as strong as mine !!!!
Hahahhah , my dear kwar can't finish her yogurt so she had to force it down her throat by hook or by crook.

And i bought Japanese pancake which is superb !!!!!!
I got tempted by rhys to share takoballs together !!!
My teoteo also kena tempted <:
Headed down to town to search for my eye mask
But almost all etude house i went , it's sold out :'( Wtf.
At town one , the stocks coming in on tuesday ..........
:/

Oh well , went home after that and literally wanna die once i reach home
Cause it's like super dupr tired !!!!!!!!
Comped awhile and oh yeah i went and hid under my blanket , letting my blanket embrace me with warmth :3
Okay i guess that's all , i'm sorry i delayed this post for so long , sorry!!!!

Trusting is easy , but trusting again is not.

2011-02-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

Hey yo my dearest readers !
I'm aware that ever since like i not sure when , i stopped blogging for super long.
Due to time constraint and the temptation of facebook ,
I diverted my attention towards facebook more often now!
- give many kisses and hugs to my readers -
Don't stop reading lovestruckreality.bs babies ,
Oh yeah recently i got kinda close with my school mates and clique again <3
- major yayness -
And yes i just broke up with samuel.
And i'm perfectly fine , i guess i seen too much of this kind of dramas happening to me in my life till i'm used to it.
And i realized it's pointless crying over spilled milk.
It's over means it's over and i'm opening up my formspring again :)
Hopefully i don't get any not constructive comment or question anymore.
I really just hope fate will really bring that special someone in my life and make sure it will stay with me till the end.
And i do NOT believe in forever and more , because there's no such things as forever.
And i've one question for you readers :)
How do you define love ? :) Do tell me in my guest book or formspring !!!!
Gotta go and prepare now <3
GOnna make cookies with my dear girl in the picture and also rhys <3
So yeah i await to see your ans!

This is cool shit.

2011-02-25T14:22:00.002+08:00

Derick:
I guess we are the left-overs in this world.

Lily:
I think so...all of my friends have boyfriends, and we are the only the 2 people left in this world without any special person in our lives.

Derick:
Yup, I don't know what to do.

Lily:
I know! We'll play a game.

Derick:
What game?

Lily:
I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days
and you will be my boyfriend.

Derick:
That's a great plan, in fact, I don't have anything to do
much for the following few weeks.

DAY 1:
They watch their first movie
and they both are touched by the romantic film.

DAY 4:
They went go to the beach and have a picnic. Derick and Lily have their quality time together.

DAY 12:
Derick invited Lily to a circus and they ride through a Horror House.
Lily was scared and she thought she touched Derick's hand but she actually touched someone else's hand they both laughed.

DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road, and they asked for their future advice.
The fortune teller said:
"My darlings, please don't waste the time of your life, spend the rest of your time together, happily." Then tears flowed out from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:
Lily invited Derick to go to the hill
and they saw a meteor; Lily mumbled something.

DAY 28:
They sat on the bus, and because of a bumpy road Lily gave her first kiss to Derick by accident.

DAY 29:
11:37 pm:
Lily and Derick sat in the park where they first decided to play this game.

Derick:
I'm tired Lily...Do you want anything to drink? I'll buy you one...I'll just go down the road.

Lily:
An Apple Juice, that's all. Thank you.

Derick:
Wait for me.

20 minutes later
A stranger approached Lily

Stranger:
Are you a friend of Derick?

Lily:
Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger:
A reckless drunk driver ran over Derick, and he is in critical condition in the hospital.

11:57 pm:
The doctor walked out of the emergency room; he handed Lily an apple juice and a letter.

Doctor:
We found this in Derick's pocket.

Lily reads the letter and it says:
Lily, These past few weeks, I realized you are a really cute girl, and I am really falling for you-your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game. Before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.
I love you, Lily.

Lily crumpled up the paper and shouted:

"Derick! I don't want you to die-
I love you; remember that night when we saw a meteor and I mumbled something. I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and that we would never have to end this game. Please don't leave me Derick .. I love you! You can't do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12...

Derick's heart stopped pumping...

It was the 30th day.

Ill be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

2011-02-19T12:51:00.000+08:00

We two had reach the end of our journey , i don't think we could possibly go on further anymore.
I understand you were the best, you gave in to all my unreasonable demands and request , you kept quiet and hide your unhappiness in order to prevent our argument , I'm sorry for making you suffer so much.
I understand it's hard on you , and i'm not a good girlfriend , unable to compromise.
I'm sorry for every sinle thing i've done to hurt you.
I didn't meant to.
And yes i love you still, just that you're not worth fighting for anymore ..
And yes people i am fine , i won't die because of a break up.

Dear diary ,

2011-02-02T20:56:00.001+08:00

Expect the unexpected.
Well surprisingly i'm experiencing it twice today.
Firstly was the winning of the class competition in school today.
4E4 topped the Sec 4 & 5 cohort again after the class beautifying contest and yes 4E1 has always come beneath us. Which really makes us wow , 4E1 may be the best for academic , but other things ? Nah don't think so for this year :)
Well , Ms jasmine owes the class pizza again :)
I guess we really did her proud this year :)
Secondly was the most unexpected things that ever happen in this year , 2011.
Just as i thought we were fine , but actually those were only a front that we both put up to avoid the weird feeling.
Because we both doesn't wanna face it.
I guess i'm always complacent to relationship and also other stuffs.
And always i failed to realize it.
I'm always so insensitive to people's feeling , because i need to go through the hard way.
HOwever this was the last thing i would like to go through the hard way for.
Friends left , if you left , i wonder who else can i lean on to.
Please just stay on.

When i say i love you sometimes those words don't explain

2011-01-12T21:16:00.000+08:00

"I hate this feeling when I can feel myself and others slowly drifting apart and I’m trying to hold onto everybody but they aren’t holding on to me as tightly. At the same time, other people are reaching out to me and I’m pushing them away so I keep holding on to people who probably aren’t even worth it to begin with."
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It's second week of school , and i'm finally getting the urge to study hard.
I just need alot of motivation everytime.
But where am i gonna get them?
Perhaps i hope my friends would keep on motivate me though!!!!
Yeah friends ..
Recently my friendship problems are stacking up.
I guess only those involved and my boyf would know what happen.
But no worries i'm gonna make it thru , and make sure everything are like before.
Though i really like to feel inside the clique again..
And i also decided to learn and control my temper and also my diet.
LOL , recently gain weight T.T I feel so guilty for gaining weight seriously.
Fuck those late night supper.
Fuck them all. i'm gonna stop consuming anymore supper or what already!
Forcing myself to exercise daily now on!!!!!!!!!!!!
:@ I HATE FATS , BUT WHO LIKES IT BEFORE>:
Probably only boyf because he loves hugging me because he says i'm baba -_-
Pfft, oh yes definitely about my boyf , we just made it through our third month ,
and yes , we didn't celebrate it together again.
Just like second month .. :/
Abit disappointed , but i understand!
Heheh stupid army make my boy unable to celebrate with me!!
Oh yes and chinese new year is around the corners !!!
So happy man!!!!
Angpaos Angpaos.
Baby says he bringing me to his relative house i think!!
and mommy allowing him to come my house like finally. LOL!!!!
That time i told my boy about it he so happy lor !!
Hahahah , stupid , but i like ^^.
Wondering why i sound so emo in the past few days on twitter but out of sudden i became positive ?
Because i don't see the point in being upset when i know the problem won't solve by being upset.
Instead i should be brave enough to face it and also tackle it.
Life are like Math., they give you hell lots of problems , and making you solve them.
Either you tackle and solve them , or you hid or dig a hole in the earth and hid , just like ostrich.
Which i do not wish to do it, so i decided to be brave and face it.
And now i get my problem , i'm trying my best to unsolve it.
And hoping those involve will give me a chance to prove my capabilities , instead of ignoring me though.
Haha , so i don't see the need to be unhappy anymore and one great thing! I start to love school already.
My friends and everythings are wonderful :) Hmm though the best aren't there yet , but they are awesome as well!!! And also smiling is indeed contagious ! :3
and also i got my target already , i wanna get a 15 and below for my L1R4 & a 20&below for my L1B5.
Although seems impossible but i'm sure i can do it !!!!!!!
because ........

Yeah! And hope all the same goes for my readers only !
haha! No la hopes it goes for everyone.
And i guess it's time to start studying again!
Bye readers , stay tune :P

Lies will never stop.

2011-01-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

This used be my hair color. Now it's so orhlulu lei.
Hmm well recently nothing happen much to me.
Just that i think i recently damn suay lor!
Okok i guess the story happened this way.

One fine morning, Yujing walk into her school(Admiralty sec)'s parade square.
As she was lining up , she saw this thing so shiny.
She walk abit closer and she took a glance on the shiny object.
HEHHEH SHE FOUND 50CENTS. (Yahlar i know very retard why does my suayness like to that 50cents. Dont say i cheapo o pick up the 50cents. 50cents add another 10cents i can buy one exercise book le lor! don't belittle it ok!) Then she happily take the 50cents because she thought it's so lucky to found money just on the first day of school(4th jan) :D
Then , on 5th jan , she collect her pay & bought two pairs of shoes , like very good luck hor !!
But on 6th jan, something fatal happened.. hais.
She was walking as per normal to school , then when she gonna walk down the stairs to get to traffic light.
SHE SLIPPED AND FALL>:
IMAGINE SO MANY PEOPLE FROM YOUR SCHOOL IS STARING AT YOU WHEN YOU FALL. :'(
So pitiful right !
And she got lots of torn skin and at her foot area , it's bleeding.
LIKE W T F MAN>:
SUAYNESS>:
Then her specs spoil. ANOTHER W T F>:
Suay anot ? Maybe she should throw another 50cents to get rid of bad luck hor! then pass on the bad luck to people!!
End of story.
Conclusion is , never take money on the floor if you see them, when you take up, make sure talk to yourself then say *tolong tolong la i only want goodluck, bad luck shooshoo go away* LOL OK LA I KNOW RETARDED LA.P.S:// another one is , kiang tio ho, mai gehkiang. :'(
PLEASE.LET.ME.BE.LUCKY.TOMORROW.ONWARDS. :(
I.PROMISE.I.WILL.BE.A.GOOD.GIRL.
hehe end of my blog entry for today!
i love sszy

Gonna make it through the rain.

2011-01-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

Hmm tomorrow is the start of a new school term.
No more fooling around, gonna buck up with my studies.
Baby told me he will fetch me after on friday isf he books out on thursday * Major happiness*
Hmm, school start , i told mommy i wont be going out much already.
But my girlfriends will definitely head out de lei.
If i go out with my bbgs then how about my boyf? :/
Really lei. so mafan to think . :/
hmmm , nothing much , i promise i will update more ok! <3
Stay tune.

2010-12-03T21:51:00.008+08:00

~~Day 01 - 15 random facts about yourself~~

I fart like normal human beings
I cry when i'm stressed out.
I have a thing for people who are humorous , has bunny teeth or vampire/tiger teeth , geeky look.
I don't really like straight hair , i prefer slightly wavy.
I let music control my feelings.
I have a dog who behaves like a human.
My hair is orangy brown!
I'm using nokia's older express music phone. CUI.
I drop my sony ericsson 's phone more than 15.
I repair my S.E phone till the people working at s.e's shop in bishan see me till sian.
I like bright color
I shake my head with the best of the song sometimes. LOL.
I like broccoli , cabbage.
I hate tomato.
I think greentea has indian smell.

Day 02 - The meaning behind your blogger name

Not much meaning !

Day 03 - Random cartoons I like

I like peter pan , patrick , Crayon Shinchan

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Kicking of blankets ?

Day 05 - A list somewhere you’ve been to

Cambodia

Day 06 - A person that changed your life

Myself

Day 07 - Someone/something that has the biggest impact on you & why

My dog , she's just like my bestfriend and i confide in her my secrets when i was young !!

Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why

Lose weight. LOL , too fat.

Day 09 - Something you’re proud of

Being samuel's girlf.

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy - Jiggy by F.cuz , Sad - Rainy days by Nan quan mama , Bored - anything that's first on my itune , Hyped - Anything that has a lot of bass , Mad - classics ?

Day 12 - Who do you miss as a friend currently

Alot actually.. My CBs.

Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Maybe you may not know , i really treated you as my friend, not a toy to vent my anger with. And not only you , another one who i dont wanna mention names. you two should know i trusted you two thats why tell you things and you blabber them out when we fall out. how great. hmm maybe i really trust wrong people and i've learnt my lesson. thanks ayway for being my friend , a hypocrite as well.

Day 14 - All about your family

My mom is a woman who is strong in appearance and mentally as well , however she do have her soft spot.
My dad is just some old man who don't really care much about how we are , but he will step into the matter if it's too serious.
My sister , she like to wear my clothes then never say , annoying bitch but she still love me and i love her too.
My brother , after he broke up with his girlf , he jitao turn into someone like very nice sia. scary but i like, annoying also.
My dog , she's also part of my family ok! our precious lil one !!!!!! she's so old but still young at heart ok!!

Day 1 5 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Heartbreaker
homecoming
Own steps
Humming bird heartbeat
Riding solo
Yi tian tian
magic
How you love me now
Promise this

Day 16 - Will your life change without your parents

Yes , because without them , i won't be born.

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

No one , i love my life now though it sucks.

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have

I wanna be a vet and faster lose somemore weight !! LOLOLOLOLOL.

Day 19 - Nicknames you have ; why do you have them
- fml i seriously dont wanna do this. but still here it goes.

Goldfish - Because my name Yujing flip over become Jingyu -.-
Fishdemon - thanks alot to Donald who told aniq my chinese name this, and i got call it for 2 YEARS. Bloody hell. lol!
Huang - We used to be so close that we call each other by sirname.
Fei yu qing - Thanks ah elvis.

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Actually, if possible i would like get marry with my current boyf. Let see maybe down 5 years - 8 years if we two are stil ltogether , i'll get him to marry me even if he dont want to! LOL. I'm not a meanie.

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

This lil chap up there. She's my most precious gem ever. I really wonder what will happen when she's gone. - insert many sad face - I love the way she welcome me back home, so adorable. Never fails to bring a smile on my face.

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else

Because i'm Huang Yu Jing. I used to follow the crowd , but i do not do it now. I live with my own thinking and beliefs . I do things my way and i abhor people to order me around. And also i'm not oh so unreasonable, just make sure you used the right way to talk to me and also i'm just someone normal living abnormally

Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot

Genie , so it wil lsatisfy all my needs and want..

Day 24 - A letter to your parents

Mom - Mommy , i guess this is the 4-5th letter i ever wrote for you huh. I know i'm not a wonderful daughter , i know i oftenly make you sad because of my atrocious behavior. And i know i'm willful at times and i'm so hard to please. Yet you still try your best to appease me, you did your ultimate best as a mom. I'm definitely proud for you. I know you're getting older and sickness will come to you. Knowing you're getting weaker , i still make you angry , rebut you whenever i feel like. Sorry mommy, i'm a disappointment right. Especially after you saw my result slip huh. I promise you i would Work hard for O'level. And last note, i love you alot my dear mommy ;-*
Dad- You're more like my friend more than my dad. Sometimes behaving like some stupid kid who hasn't grow. Yet you too care about the family though you often snatch the computer from me. Surfing facebook to play farmville but when mommy and me argue you would step in and make both side ok.
thanks for being my dad , old man. Haha Love you lots too daddy :*

Day 25 - Who you hate

Hate is a word too strong to be used. the most i dislike.

Day 26 - Why do you hate this person

NIL :>

Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Make sure i have readers., LOL no la joking.for fun i guess.

Day 28 - A youtube video
Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned

Learned to cherish , not to sidetrack from live, stand up even when we fall , don't ever give others a chance to laugh at you.

Day 30- Who are you?

Huang Yu Jing. Yvette is a name i gave, i have an awesome boyf who loves me alot. I'm contended with my life with my clique and boyf and F a m i l y. I love my life though it sucks.

30days

2010-12-03T21:43:00.002+08:00

Sorry people's i forgotten what i've done lately )': So i cant update on it.
I only know the chocolate fondue & Xiao long bao was awesome.
Especially my dates with all my lovelies.
And my boyf's leaving for army :'(
Gonna miss him sibei kumpua much. :"(
Ok so i'm doing the 30 days thing. everyday, ok la maybe whenever i use comp if i'm not lazy. Hehe.
It's on the next post!
Tada readers. I'm gonna edit post everyday if i remember , stay tune,

You meant the world to me.

2010-11-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for neglecting my blog! Apologies my lovelies .
I went out with my dearest boy to celebrate our first month on 11th nov 2010 !
And i headed out with my darlings on 12th Nov 2010!
& I super love my boyf and my bestf and my darlings !!!!!!
I will update more about the outings in the future !
Sorry lovelies ! Stay tune~

You're my sunshine , my only sunshine. ♥

2010-11-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

" Everything comes in a pair , breakup comes with tears , lost comes with regret , regret comes with cherish and you came with my smile. "
Lately things has been running rather smoothly for me.
Except those minor squabbles i had with my babyboy.
However it normally ends very quickly , with one of us apologizing.
And we will resolve it with h2h talk.
As for me and my friends , everything are real fine.
Just that recently i couldn't join them while they enjoy their dates out together thanks to my weekend job.
But it's ok <3 cause we'll have alot of next time one !
& i'm gonna take up two jobs during the holidays.
I know it means lesser time with my love ones especially my dearest boy.
:'( So i gotta make a double effort to keep spare time for him & also my friends.
Oh my , how am i gonna find my balance now.
While juggling with studies , relationship , friendship and money?
really wonder, but i'm sure i can find a balance in it !
It's gonna be baby and i 's first month !
hooray =D , ever since 19 , my other r/s wont even pass one month lor !
And i'm gonna celebrate my one monthsary with my bagehbaobei !
Kekeke , looking forward to it , because he say he's gonna bring me go eat xlb siol~
Hehehe , shall update another time readers !
And i'm dye-ing my hair into sweet apricot color !
Running out of idea soon.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?

2010-11-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

And yes i was working on the 30th & 31st October in Woodlands Courts :)
Well fortunately the people over there are rather genuine and nice.
Make me feel kinda welcome !
But sadly , i only managed to sell one product through out my two days.
- Insert sibei lots of sad face -

On 30th October 2010 , baby being so nice, traveled all the way from tamp to woodlands just to meet me to have my simple lunch.
However , BECAUSE HE WANNA WATCH HIS SHINCHAN AT HOME , HE PREPARE LATE :(
That alone made me grumble till he can't take it :b
Because i waited for him with my rumbling stomach for 2 hour :(
He came and i keep giving him black face :(
Sorry baobei , love ni many many <3 <3 !

( Sorli ah , i keep post my pics . The 3 pic , was taken on 31st Oct )
Had our lunch and we walked around and baby did something fucking dumb.
LOL You know i know others no need know huh baobei.
After that i went back and stood there like a moron for the remaining few hours.
And i ended work :)
End of 30th October 2010.

(Using Cindy meinv's Itouch take one :b )
31st October , i reached my work place on the dot !
Yayness you know :D
And i sold nothing on the day but it was alright , because heard from the rest of the staff there , normally promoter selling my product in CWP , sold none one.
Consider me lucky then !
Baby went to nian jing so he didn't come and find me for lunch (3
LOL , And he so proud that he can concentrate lor.

Hehe , met all my CBs.
All so sweet come my workplace find me and wait me change !!
Aftermath we headed over to Woodgroove for HALLOWEEN.
I was behaving like some mouse like that.
From far see some people wearing scary costume , grab MeiNv's Hand till tight tight.
LOL. Walked around and got many sweets !
And all my sweets are missing even though i dump it in my bag !
Cool or what.

Cindy with that cool colored hair wobbly eyes guy who is so cute!
We poke his wobbly eyes he ouch so loudly till i jump.
Hehe , so funny.
Then we see more angmor in their awesome costume !
Really very awesome.
I just see them only i run and hid behind cindy.

(Cindy , Rurong , Seeto )
Maybe because of the Fareast incident, where the people who advertising the night safari halloween thing scared me once, making me a timid mouse.
Hehe. We sibei buayba. LOL
Learn from cindy , " can i have more ? " LOL.
But not as buayba as Vinez.
" I went for second round "
LOLOLOLOL.

(Cindy rurong)
Went over Peijia house for awhile.
And rurong joined us !
And chitchat before heading to Waterfront.
Which i haven't played yet!
Made a promise with Seeto to come back and play :D
Looks damn fun there.

(Seeto & Rhys )
Guess i shall end it here with a small part for my babyboy.
" Baobei ah baobei , i haven't been seeing you for quite sometimes and i know you're heading into army soon.
And i'm gonna miss you alot. I'm sorry that i didn't say it on phone yesterday night and even made you irritated :( You know i really love you alot. Even though we been together like less than a month, but it has already feel like i'm yours for a long time babyboy. It's gonna be our very first month <3 And i know i definitely did better than any of your ex girlf did, because i am huang yu jing ! "
Ok that will do =D
Sayo!

No matter what height i fall from , i won't be afraid , because i know you will always be there to catch me.

2010-10-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

This is a ducky name fluffy which is a plushie that boyfee bought for me.
Ok cut the crapping.
Lately this few days , school was so slack!!
Kinda like neutral to all feelings in school lor!
Just that i miss babyboy alot.
Oh yes ! Yesterday ( 261010 ) I meet my tongtong already :D
To collect my hellokitty earpiece and pass her her things as well :b
she so cute la!! But i'm cuter of course :P
Pei her walked around Bishan & meet her blogshop owner :b
Then we two love to eat mushroom <3
Hehehe wo de tongtongchiang !
Hurried home after a phone call from mommy :b
That's end of yesterday.
Today was kinda boring !
Kinda feeling sibei neutral too!
had fun talking in toilet with priya and laura.
Coolio . they send me a canto song which is in my playlist !
It's so nice lor :D
Ohh baby i love you ~ I love you everyday~
Keep singing this song lor just now !
Ok i know this post is shitty and boring.
But so be it. & I realized everytime i argue with baby , it will always continues one lor :'(
Irritating. but now everything is fine <3
Hehehehehehehehehe.
Oh and i wanna share this to my readers :P
Found it quite true.
Here it goes :
"WHAT EACH KISS MEANS"
- Kiss on the Forehead: We're cute together .
- Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.
- Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.
- Kiss on the Neck: I want you, now.
- Kiss on the Shoulder: Your perfect.
- Kiss on the Lips: I LOVE YOU...
____________________________________________________
WHAT EACH GESTURE MEANS:
- Holding Hands: We definitely like each other.
- Holding you tight pressed against each other: I want you.
- Looking into each other's Eyes: I like you, for who you are.
- Playing with Hair: Let's fool around.
- Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go.
- Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you.
____________________________________________________
ADVICE:
- If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely
in Love.-----------------------------------------------------------------------
Ok i love my baby and off i go.

Wish upon the shooting stars.

2010-10-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

" The spaces between your fingers were created so that another could fill them in."

I didn't attend school today.
All thanks to the wonderful tummy ache i had in the morning which make me unable to walk properly.
Headed over to the Poly clinic because i'm really suffering a lot of pain.
Wanted to take bus go :(
But really very pain and if i late go , means gotta wait even longer , means suffer more pain :(
So i took a cab over , but why are some Singaporean taxi driver so sotong one!
He don't know where's the poly clinic..
And when i say it's at near the opposite of Marsiling Mrt ,
He nearly go stop at Woodland Mrt.
Wahlao!!!! Waste my $7.55 leh .
How i wish polyclinic would be more efficient !!
So i don't have to wait so long for my turn to come :b
Though our healthcare system is better than most of the countries out there , but really hope it would improve!
Daddy came and accompany me , because i thought after paying the cab fare i wouldn't have enough to pay for my bills :b
So daddy had to come and accompany till the end and he help me pay.
So shy max please :$
Had my lunch plus breakfast with daddy around Marsiling area.
Hmm , after that went home , and nua-ed.
Till around 1pm , i started using comp & continue nua ! :D
LOL. I miss baby please :'(
That stupid gangsterbunnyjoycekorkorftw+bangsboyboy :(
I love him no matter what ^3^
111010's babygirl.

I'll swear it again.

2010-10-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

I swear i won't make you feel upset anymore baby.
You meant too much to me, and i really appreciate everything you done for me so far.
Even though they might mean nothing to others, but they meant everything to me.
Thanks for coming into my life babyboy.
Although we've been together for merely a short while but i found myself loving you more.
Babyboy , i love you.
And it can't be summarized into a small post.
So i'm gonna tell you how much i love you through every single post i'm gonna post in the future.
Hehe !

2010-10-20T17:30:00.000+08:00

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Her Eos is selling at $17 per pair , $16 per pair if you buy 3 pairs and more !!!
It's best to buy EOS & GEO together with your friends !!
So that it will be cheaper :D
Queenie lens , has diameter of 17.2 mm , she's selling at $19 per pair.
Price is kind of steep , but i saw on other blogshops which sells the same queenie lens @ $22 !
Besides , 17.2mm would be able to make your eyes look bloody gorgeous and cute.
Why not take a look at Avantgarde and see if there is any lens that caught your eyes !
She's definitely 100% trustworthy :D
So hurry! What are you waiting for :)
-

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It's like so many days since i updated my blog properly.
Yesterday was the one month that me & babyboy know each other <3
It seems like everytime i'm with him , the time passes real fast , but when we're not together.
Time passes real slow :(
Although we got together like less than 9 days , it felt like it has already been a month or so.
Hehehe i super love my dearest .
Babygirl & Rhys is out in pennisular now :(
I didn't go because i have school today ..
And so ,they two are having fun now i guess ? :D
It's ok because Saturday we are hanging out together with the rest =D
Major happiness !
And Sunday i get to see my babyboy as well <3
Hehex , sibei happy.
Anw to those who are interested in flea market , try Scape's !
It's on this saturday :)
wanna get cheap yet pretty stuff ?
Hurry down to scape this saturday :D
Hmm .. guess that's all my dear readers :)

You're mine no matter what.

2010-10-18T10:50:00.000+08:00

Ok, i'm really running out of pictures, because my phone i send it for repair, and also my usb thing spoil! :D
How awesome.
Pleaase ignore the two pimple which is on both of my cheeks.
The pimples have long subsided .
Things happen between the days i didn't blog.
Am glad that we both are back together, as strong as ever.
Hor N2P ? :P
And i'm loving my babyboy more and more everyday.
Though he's so irritating.
Haha , Alright babies , that shall do.
I promise a more fruitful post next time :)
Last but not least , Eat pray love , is a nice movie if you understand !

Happy 15th birthday to myself.

2010-10-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

It's finally my 15th birthday =D !
A day which i wasn't looking forward to because it's in between many of my good friend's examination period!
However my babygirls surprised me with their decorated cake.
Hahahah , had so much fun with them today!
Thank babygirls .
Love you guys tons :D
Although some of you are irritating , buayba , violent(lol).
But i love you guys a lot a lot!
Though we are different school , but i really very happy to know you all!
And also i made a new friend today , who is Ru Rong !
Hehe she's so cute also.
And Friday & Sat i'm booked with my babygirls.
HEHEHEHE , Friday sing K , Saturday go shop.
Woolala . My pay sure spend damn fast.
Ok and i love my babyboy.
He damn sweetz please, played happy birthday for me on his bass guitar.
Retarded sial him. But me heartz him tons.
My family bought me cake too.
awesome, two cake in a day.
And thank you all my lovely friends in facebook , be it cyber or real.
Thank you for your birthday wishes..
I apologize for not saying thankyou but only liking your wishes !
Cause facebook being such a bitch , doesn't allow me to comment , but it's only temporary !
And also i'm gonna mug for math!
Last but not least , i wanna thank everybody again!
Thanks for making my fifteenth birthday such a memorable one.
Especially my CB Fam ? :D Hehehehe!
Max (L) For all of you.

Happy front.

2010-10-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

- Yeahyeah i know i look so ugly , but whatever -
Got hooked up with Rihanna's Unfaithful again.
It's such an awesome song!
Recently life's a bitch again.
I really wonder , why is life always such a bitch during Aug - nov.
Why is it so :/
Every time during this months , things happens.
Be it happy or sad , it still happened.
And i lost a friend of mine.
But it's alright. Partly is my fault to cause such things to happen.
Maybe i'm a jinx in everyone's life.
But happy to say i have a happy-go-lucky personality.
So yeah , and i guess i'm quite contended with my life too!
:)

Trust is like a piece of string. Once snap it won't be the same.

2010-09-30T19:35:00.001+08:00

This pic above has been ages already please.
Lately hasn't been going out also no pic plus been sleeping late = CUI.
Studies are still going fine !
End of year coming soon , a lil nervous.
Gotta improve tons on many things.
Nevermind i can one :D
Hehehe , and also a lil update of my recent test plus result !
I passed my geog retest ! :D
And also i got 88/100 for my poa. FIRST TIME LOR.
DUMB. HEHE.
Ok that's all.
My life is boring lately.
Hasn't been exploring Singapore or heading anywhere.
So yeah.
BYE !

大白痴

2010-09-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

Have you been wondering why hasn't I update my blog?
Hehe I have been busy with my life. Busy enjoyin
And I promise to tell you more about that idiot I know right?
He's the most irritating most lovable most sickening.
He has an adorable smile , which has the ability to melt my heart .
I like always abuse him sia . Hehe
He's awesome. I feel extremely happy when I hear praises from him! Hehe
Really. Second time feel this way ^^

Cómo me haces falta tú

2010-09-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

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Oh well school was a bore as well today.
Test and test and test. Irritating much.
Faced with so much fucked up test.
Which is totally so fucked up.
Oh and ( - insert heart - ) For mr lin.
Thanks to him! I think my geog test wont fail.
Xiexie ni Mr lin!!
& I feel so guilty now............
Cause i cheated in my chem & Poa test.........
Poa understandable ........ But why even chem lor )':
Sigh , i think i'm really gonna chiong my studies like a maddie already please.
Life is really being a bitch lately.
I seriously have no idea what else to add on.
Life consist of study , text , exam , have fun , sleep , eat , shit , bath. Stupid sial.
:(
Anddddddd i recently know a 白痴.
Update more about that baichi next time!
hehe! Btw i saw something real cool and i think it's quite true on a website , so decided to share with everyone.
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Why Girls Love Guys:
1.The way they act so innocent sometimes
2.The way they laugh
3.The way they smile
4.The way they get confused
5.The way they look into your eyes and make everything even just for a second go away
6.The way they touch you just to let you know he is there
7.The way they try to defend themselves when you tease them
8.The way he stares at you when you are walking down the hall even though his best friend is telling him the scores of last nights big game
9.The way they seem to pop out of nowhere and slip their arms around you
10.The way you fit just right in his arms
11.The way he gets embarrassed when he does something clutzy around you and tries to cover it up
12.The way they kiss you when you just had a big fight
13.The way they kiss you when your day has gone completely wrong
14.Actually just the way they kiss you
15.The way when you hug them they feel exactly like your childhood teddy bear
16.The way they can stay on the phone for hours even if he doesnt have much to say
17.The way he looks at you when he thinks you are asleep
18.The way he says "you look beautiful" even though you are just in jeans and a t-shirt
19.The way they stare at you in class and then still stare after he has gotten in trouble for not paying attention
20. The way they say "I LOVE YOU"

- Allison, Jessica, Jessica, Six, and Betty

2010-09-22T19:35:00.001+08:00

Make you like a rose that speaks silently the language of fragrance because it is only in the depth of silence that you can hear your heart's voice

-
I'm gonna be a mini teacher my doggiestfriendOnEarth Vinez Teo dogdog.
Ok bye. School is terrible this week.

4 letter lie.

2010-09-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiled.
the one who could always brighten your day.
even if she couldnt brighten her own

- sweet thing

It's a rather fuck up day for me though.
Been through a few thoughts and yes.
I'm gonna focus on my studies now , 15 moredays to E.O.Y .
Two more weeks , very critical.
I'm gonna channelize my focus into my studies now.
And i too plan what am i gonna do when it's holiday , most probably going back sakura to work.
It's so fun there. I really enjoyed myself there.
Alot alot. Feel super carefree working there.
Miss everyone there ! At least those who i've worked with!
Sheila , Xiuqing & Fathen. A few other chef too!
Who i talked to and joke with , Last but not least Chris , Patrick & curly hair Uncle ricky.
Gosh , I really miss there ok! Though working hours are long , but i guess it's tolerable . :)
Can choose shift somemore!
Hehe , so good nor.
Ok back to the point , today school totally stressed me out.
I was so freak out that i actually scream my head off at Zi Ling :'(
Feel super sorry. Didn't have the guts to say sorry to her ftf ! SO SORRY ZILING ! I humji so i say here k! Loveyou mwahmwah!
Oh and i had many fucking test lined up for me.
Exciting hur ?
I totally flunk my physic test today , so gonna emo when i get it back.
LOL :/ Shan't fret over it. What's done is done.
What's gone is also gone.
Tada. Kthxbai

Bring me back to reality

2010-09-19T20:33:00.001+08:00

Hello to sweeties who are waiting my post !
Alright let's start with 18th of September 2010.
Met my doggyteo @ her house around 1.30pm.
Always the late queen sial both of us!

Thanks to her mommy who drove us to Woodlands Mrt station cause it's raining and we were lazy to wait for bus :)
Crapped alot on train ! Bbg and i bought ear piece to listen music , and bbg's earpiece sot. LOL
She want listen must tilt her head then bothside got music. Epic fail.

On the train something ridiculous happened. HAHAH.
Some lady keep squeezing into our side on train cause her precious BABYBOY wanna look out of window.
LOL, What's wrong with us telling her off politely.
We even included Excuse Me and sorry .
Wtf she want still.

ROFLOL @ Right Pix..
LOL wtf sial i forget what bbg wanna do. BIRD FACE AHAHAHA.
Oh yeah , then we headed down to clarke to search some cheap goodies from flea market !
& also my sticky !

We only head down to Home club's one. Maybe is because home club is nearer to the station , many people were over there ;'(
I only managed to get a black dress with bbg's help !
Because she very good at digging up pretty things !
No wonder she dog. hehehe!

Shortly after that we went to bugis and i bought spicy korean rice cake, which was quite filling and spicy :'(
BBG bought her chicken ball or what ball i think & my BBG is very stupig.
She don't know what is Dineng and still thought is sweet egg.

Really very di neng.
Walked around bugis street and we both were like street idiot , guess it must be that we haven't step into bugis street for a very long time !
Can't blame , due to BBG's town cells , she kept going town :'(
And oftenly skipping bugis . :P

I got another cute dress at bugis at a relatively good price !
Best buy of the day! :D
Hehex , headed to Far east aftermath .
Walked around and saw this cute wedges at $15 only.
NB SO CUTE CAN THAT WEDGES.
:'(

BBG was complaining hungry and so we walk towards old town white coffee !
And otw there, there's people advertising the halloween thingy in Night safari.
Fml , i thought i was very brave , and i wasn't afraid at first when the chinamaidlookalike ghost come near me.

She hehe to me , i thought i not scared , i go hehe back.
End up she scare me , i jump.
She scare me twice.
Fml i wanted to leave that area asap. LOL But bbg wanted to see all of the "ghost"

I being a loyal friend , i accompanied her, ended up to more disgraceful scene.
LOL )':
The medusa stared at me and the eyes was like so scary.
Then keep hiss at me, I more scared then i run and i sort of scream.
FML.
Walked around far east awhile more before heading home, and on the escalator, my phone drop all the way to the floor and tada , i gotta send it for repair the other day which is 190910!

I go bishan repair phone till the auntie remember me sial.
So shy.
Bobian i am very careless person
Drop my phone very easily.
:/
And yeah now im using laobei phone!

We went back admiralty and i accompany BBG wait till 6plus pm and we spend our time nua-ing in mac.
Saw quite alot of familiar faces there.
hehe , Me & BBG start to get random we played with tissue to make tissue mask!
See mine got hole for my nose , BBG's No have.
LOL EPIC SIAL LATER SHE CANT BREATHE WHEN DOING MASK HEHEHEH.
OK then crap till 6pluspm i went home.
That's all !
Tada , byebye !

Even the day must give way to the night

2010-09-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

Oh well , school was such a bore today!
Two of my precious didn't attend school, most probably is to skip Poa :P
Stupidgirl95 !!
Left me & Ziling alone !! Hehe , ^^v
Talk alot crap with her ^-^
And also after poa , i didn't attend remedial , while she doesn't have any!
So she came over my house ^-^
Used my comp , and roflol at some comments.
Then around 5plus she went home ^-^ !
Leaving me alone at home now.
Ok today is boring ^-^ Gonna head into audi now. :)

Swear it again,

2010-09-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

I'm never gonna say goodbye , Cause I never wanna see you cry.
-
Today was a super awesome day!
Especially during P.E !
We had ultimate fun , because we wanted to use the two rope to make a swing , however one of it was stuck up.
And we had to push Priya & Hazliyana up the rope to make the other rope drop down!!!
Ultimate fun!!
After P.E Was mother tongue and i was rushing my english compo !
Titled : " Jealousy " To my surprise , i actually wrote almost 2 & 1/2 foolscap if i didn't leave a line for first 3 paper and leaving the page behind blank! After writing it , i got glen whose english was one of the better one to read and check for any error for me ! Yes i know i couldn't write fluently in accurate english.
I know i have limited vocab la i also know my english very cmi!
But i was really happy when glen told me my essay was well done !!
Ji happy lor , though alot sentence structure mistake, but whatever at least my idea for story is well liken !
Alright fast forward all nonsense.
I got a sad news , i can't add new songs into my playlist for my phone :'(
Because the bloody media player was blank when i open it!
Fuck my phone's life.
I gonna send it to repair as soon as possible.
Dang , how many times have i visited Bishan just to repair my phone ?!
COUNTLESS , Cheena Teo also use same phone as me , but she only send for repair once.
LOL, wtf sial.
But sad thing is i have no spare phone and i prefer to use an sony ericsson phone :/
Because inside my phone got alot of songs and pictures ! :(
PS:// S.E's phone so cbk one. LOL even memory card only S.E Phone can fit in. MOST of the time , i think :P
Oh well , when i was walking home , i saw Amirah !
Sayang her because i saw her sobbing away )':
Although we two had conflicts before , but bygones are bygones !
Since she changed for the better , at least to me , why not be friends back again!
Never hold grudges because it only shows how narrow minded you are.
Accompany her till Fir came and i left shortly aftermath!
Reached home and started to nua.
Please do not tell my babyboy that i miss him much !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok la guess that's all.
^^v

You could never bring me down,

2010-09-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

I wonder what joy does hater have by throwing sarcastic remarks and hurtful comments to people.
Really , why not just say infront of the person's face instead of being a coward behind the screen.
B giving such remarks online instead of face to face only show how much courage do you have.
It's 2010, face it , you're just someone who has no self esteem nor no confidence and have to satisfy yourself by hurling hurtful comments to people . But so sorry , your comments means nothing to me.
I'm really wondering why are you even reading my blog when you're giving me nasty comment !
:) Woah , i lied about my weight ? What a hilarious joke , come on , i think the one who are lying about it is you !
And beside i'm rather proud of my body figure . So what else do you have to say ? :)
At least now when i'm standing on a 51-53 kg , with my height of 156-155 , at least i have a bodyshape for goodness sake. It's so much better than those who are skinny till they have no boobs and butt or whatever shape. It's not that i'm discriminating skinny people or what, and yes i like to be slim one day and i'm trying to achieve my goal ^^ And please , you don't even know me. And how you dare you make out such nonsense lie about me lying ????? LOL , My classmates all see me standing on the weighing machine before leh~ I go poly clinic also range around 51-53 leh ! HAHAHAH , 58-57 is like so april - june ! Can't believe people are so ridiculous enough to take people's past to say , and hello , it's 2010 ~~~ And obviously my boyfriend and friends don't matter about my bodysize or weight , so who are you to comment?
Are you a friend of mine ? or what else?
Hhehehehehee! await your next reply my stalker ;)

Busy :(

2010-09-11T09:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was so so so busy that i couldn't even reply any text till breaktime.
Aiyks and seeto lie on me and i fall onto the ground.
Stupidgirl95 sial she. - piak her -
Hheehehehehe !
Ok today & tmrw is gonna be a busy day! i nearly sleep overtime today !
Auto wake up at 9.
hehehehehehe , okokokok crap post whatever la.
To all haters , You dont like me , you still read my blog for ?????????
And and to the "Classmate" or "Schoolmate" who doesn't like me ,
Well school's reopening soon , i dont mind you coming and find me to tell me HOW MUCH you dislike about me :)
Alright , bye. gonna be late to meet seeto.

You'll never know me well.

2010-09-09T13:52:00.001+08:00

Sorli for the blur image !!!!!!
& You can see the green shirt angmoh behind us. LOL!
He like keep taking picture of us :$
NO LA JOKE ONE LA. LOL.
Cindy say is taking pic of her ! Kekekekeke! So bhb , but i like !

Okay let's start !
Met Vinez @ her block there , woots and we're late !
I admit it's because of me that's why we late :'(
Sorli to Seeto & Rhys .
So we train down to bugis & creating alot of noise with seeto!!
But super fun la <3
That's why i like going out with them, so carefree and happy !

Reached bugis & start to hunt for steamboat shop!
Me & Seeto was like crazy girlgirl , we hold hand & skip down the alley.
Making alot of noise like crazy girlgirl !!! Happygirl95 when with CBs !
We found one is " Tian tian huo guo " So cheap can?!?!
LOL Pay before 5 is $14 , then after $5 is only $16 !!!!!
But we didn't eat there :'(
Instead we eat at some look attas but food kns de shop.
LOL So nevermind , we letting our auntie cells go wild , we go take alot scallop & seeto keep eat oyster!
LOL to the max.

My unglam & seeto acting sexy.
CHEH !!!!!!!!!!!!!! We waited for cindy meinv come then we start our steamboat feast !!!
Wahkao while waiting for her to arrive i drink one cup of mango smoothie & one cup of lime juice leh!
Pity my bladder much. LOL.
I solo one mala soup base which taste like shit la.
LOL Seeto gay , hers tomyum le , already quite hot , she still add chilli powder.
:( Eat alot of scallop & My first time eat oyster is on the 8th of september 2010!!!!
I only dare eat clam :(
But i didn't eat alot because i eat till alot sand ;(

Eat , joke , talk cork !!!
& I got very hyper after like becoming full !
LOL i keep laughing and laughing like some nonsensical girlgirl!
And we make a lot of noise in that shop!!
Till their waitress dislike us .
=.= But only THAT waitress show us black face sial!
The rest never leh , we come out eat is t o enjoy and have fun not to see people's blackface.

Oh yes ! Yesterday , me & seeto both wear boyfriend shirt <3 !
I got the exact same as hers !!
Should wear then we couple wear :P

LOL OK SEE MY JIAOBINBINBIN OK .
BUT SEE MY GEOLENS TOO !
Yesterday Cindy keep scold me irritating because my geo lens make my eyes kumpua big & INNOCENT.
LOL.

Well cindy also did a part in irritate the waitress by spilling her drink!
haha , sillygirl95 sial she. Spill on herself.
- Sayang her -

Me and cindy !!
See i cover my cutecute eyes for her <3 !
LOL :P She look so cute right !!
Oh yes , after that we go bugis junction and take neoprint !!
Did alot stupid things , we inside the machine machiam monkeys .
LOL SO NOISY PLEASE.

Fug my eyebags . ZZZZZZZZZZZZ :'(
I've been sleeping quite alot le leh!!
WHY STILL GOT SIAL.
After neoprints , me & cindy caught the rest camwhore without us :(
So we camwhore !!!
LOL , see below !!

Me & cindy !!
Hehehehehe!!
after all this crazy camwhore , we went to search for toilet because nature's call is urgent !!
Was damn pissed because all the toilet are either full or no idea where is it.
Tmb , sucha huge place toilet abit limited sial.
Used the handicap toilet instead, really lucky that none of the disable people was there to use the toilet :(
If not will feel damn guilty for using their toilet !
LOL. Toilet.

Vinez , cindy & me !
After toilet , we decided to go print photo because our prettygirl95 cindy , wanna print photo !
So yeah , we went to the shop but it hangs a sign saying BRB 10 min later then will come back * something like that*
We walked around B1 & i bought japanese ice cream!!
Couldn't hold the urge, but partly is because Yami yogurt no have fruity pebbles ;(
& cindy paiseh herself twice !!
The second time she paiseh herself her face red till like what only !!
So cute , haha ! When i think about her face i keep laugh ;(
Cause really so cute la!!
Print pictures then we train home!
Camwhore abit in train then was listening music all the way.
Said good bye to cindy when she alight first :(
Then hug seeto because we alighting !!
Then i bus home with vinez ^^v
Lately i go out till quite late :(
No good !!
Ok that's all!
Pix spam below.

Super love this & this !
Because both my babies and i look so cute !!!

Yes here are part of my gems <3 !!!!!
Super love them .
That's all for now sweeties !
I'm gonna prepare now to meet my dearest babyboy.

Faggots.

2010-09-07T13:07:00.002+08:00

Ok i think i'm gonna get many many geo lens already !!
Look how Geo lens made my eyes look quite dolly !!!
Omg , super kawaii!!!!
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Ok back to the point.
Apparently someone in my formspring say i should check on my attitude because my classmate hate me?
Woah , ^^
It doesn't really affect me, because if they really do hate me , i guess they would long come and confront me.
Most probably , only YOU hate me instead of my WHOLE class.
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Gonna head for tuition now !
Dear is sick :(
Stupid boy don't know how take care of himself :'(
Sayang him ^^v
Okkkkkkk Guess that's all!!
Kthxbai , most probably i might edit this post ? :D
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Story time.
A boy meet girl , girl don't like boy but boy like girl .
Boy treat girl very good , but girl got boyf .
Boy still treat girl very good.
Girl very touched that boy treat girl very good.
Girl had a lil sudden crush for boy at first , but the thought went away before girl got attached.
Girl wanna let boy know that , girl really appreciated what boy done.
Thought she really hope boy will find a better girl to dote.
Boy like to dan girl yi li.
Hahah ,
End of it.

You know you're the one.

2010-09-06T20:48:00.000+08:00

Met Vinez & Rhys for mac for my lunch.
Then went to mini toons to buy fart bomb !!!
Jitao bomb Cwp's lift & Toilet.
LOL Both also i step one :'(
Vinez & Rhys humji.
LOL........
Sibei smelly please.
Then went to meet jean at boots and shoes to collect lens.
HEHEHEHEHE HAPPYGIRL95 !!
Um then went over Rhys's house to change into case.
Because Rhys & Vinez accidentally drop my lens :(
And the glass bottle broke..
So yeah.. After rhys house , we headed to Lotone to meet joyce (L)!!!
She very pretty can :'(
And we waited for her for like 20mins ..........
Tmd pretty girl also cannot late so long ma..
Bought my shoes ^^
Happygirl95 again9 :D
Meet dao joyce le, even happygirl95!!
kekeke.
Then shortly after that we went down to chongpang for Rhys to do her fringe ^^
Walked around and bought contact lens case ^^
Happygirl95 again :D
Aftermath , went home.
LOL , So here i am posting about today!
It's a cold day :'(
And i'm having sorethroat like so kelian only. :/
kthxbai & i love my twentysix.

Crushed .

2010-09-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

Found this on a website & found it quite cool.
So yeah , here it goes.

*What Does Love Mean?*

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's Love. Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. (Now this will melt your heart.) The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When
his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

- Unknown
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Kinda lengthy !!! And both of my eyes are officially swollen.
Thanks to the super (Y) Makeup removal which got into my eyes.
Woohoo , and only my right eyes is red again ...............
Fml , dont do this to me !!
My geo lens coming le leh!!
Ta nai nai de.
:'((((((((((
Sibei sad...........................
Ok no point getting sad, hope my eyes recover before friday !!
Hehe :D
Ok byebye !

♥ ☮ ♥ ☮

Your kisses like morphines.

Hey can I call you mine ?

Valentines

Love is a funny thing

You're the only thing that kept me going on.

Happy 4th month darling.

Sometimes it's easier to pretend you don't care, than to admit it's killing you.

I just can't get enough of you.

I am wearing the smile you gave me :)

I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.

So what are we now ?

Hey you

You'll never find someone like me.

Never want Us to become you and I.

You made me realized that there's really fairytale like relationship in reality.

In the end, what we regret most are the chances we never took.

People throw rocks at things that shine.

Watch your back.

A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but true friends only poke each other with straws.

No words describe how much i love you.

Disappointments

Beatiful eyes for you ?

Don't go away

Every time i follow my heart, it leads me to you.

The truth is hard to swallow when you're choking on your pride.

Give me something that will haunt me when you're not around.

Random

What am i suppose to do ,when the best part of me was always you.

Meow

Imperfect.

Just 3 clicks will do!

Sometimes the feelings you really mean are found in the letters which you write and never send.

Memories hurt.

I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.

True friends stays.

If i were a boy i would know how to treat my girl right ,hold them tight and never let them cry.

What is me w/o you

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What is me w/o you

Begin each day as if it were on purpose.

Are you the you that i first knew years ago?

Happy girl.

Regrets.

There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

Lexithymia

Screw Hugs.

Commitment.

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Maybe we'll not see each other that much but every laugh we shared, every smile you brought to my face, the memories we made together, is and always engraved in my heart so that i would never forget anything about you & us..

" Memories "

Alone or lonely?

Lies will never stop.

Treat me right ,

No one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I'll give you all my love if i have all of yours.

You're the reason for my smile.

If i were a boy i would know how to treat my girl right ,hold them tight and never let them cry.

Back your words up with actions.

Why do you have so much to prove ?

My love.

Smiling is contagious.

Hands off , he is mine not yours anymore.

Let's commit the perfect crime , i'll steal your heart & you'll steal mine.

I just need to see you smile and then it would have made my day.

Bad week.

I want your attention

White horse.

不縱容他 再給妳傷害

Trusting is easy , but trusting again is not.

This is cool shit.

Ill be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

Dear diary ,

When i say i love you sometimes those words don't explain

Lies will never stop.

Gonna make it through the rain.

30days

You meant the world to me.

You're my sunshine , my only sunshine. ♥

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