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Hey I've moved to HERE :)

Back on my own

Guess it's just all over this time round, and am happy it didn't hurt that much.
Seriously thanks those who are always there for me, regardless how much I neglected them when I'm in a relationship. I promise a well filled update. x
Thank you baby girls , all six of you for pulling me back on my feet and accompany me through out the darkest period of my life, wouldn't know what to do without all of you.
Thank you Ednes baby too! Sorry couldn't continue being close with ya back then <3 But glad we came back as one ^-^
Thanks Ahxin bff, although you always irritate me but end up also inject life quotes into me.
My two dearest best bro/buddy , Dino and weiyang too <3 You two care for me the most too!!!!!
& Special thanks to all those who asked me to cheer up <3 xoxo
My life is gonna be great, with or without you.
Last but not least, I still wish you all the best in whatever you do. Goodbye.
Ciaos lovelies.

Just another day

Hey this is me again updating my place where thoughts are free to run. Hahaha. Don't know if you all know. Shawn and I broke up again like at least 4-5 times because of quarrels and ended up patching back again on our 9th months. ☺ that period when we keep breaking up. I have to admit. It really did strained me. I was so close to giving up. Couldn't deny. But then again when I saw him again. My heart aches a little and it means that I am still not over him. I guess it felt the same for him too. You know it's just like he's been part of my life. Ever since 080911 I gotten too used to him. Really is like we almost every single day meet ever since he got posted to 8-5 unit. Haha. That's why it's so hard to draw myself away from him. ☺. This guy made me cry made me sad made me angry made me feel hurt. But he did love me he did care for me he did treat me right. These three reasons are still the reasons for me to hold on. And I really did put my all for this relationship. And find it a pity to let go after all that we had been through. I do believe that if I can be the reason for him to change after so long of playing around. He won't let go so easily as well. Right ??? That's also another reason for me to hold on and believe him. Maybe to you all. Our relationship may seems tiring and if you were in our shoes you might give up. Yeah we are tired. But not of one another. But of all these quarrels. But then they are all inevitable because quarrels do happen. Even for the slightest reasons. We didn't give up on one another despite us saying we will give up, probably just to make people who care less worry. Then again he's the guy that I truly truly gave my heart fully to. I believed he is worthy of my everything becuz he is that different from the rest. ☺ I know it because he did shown me how diff he is. He appears strong. He acts as tho he's fine alone. But deep down I know he's not ^^ he do craves for attention like a kid. He do behave like one when no ones around. ☺ he kiss me whenever I asked to no matter how many times. ☺ he makes me laugh. He cared for me when I'm sick. ☺ I realized. When you're in love. All you only see is all his good points and you also love his bad. ☺ because love works this way. Regardless of how bad he can treat you. You'll still stay because you believed he still loves you. ☺ you're willing to fight for this relationship. Even if it's hurts because you believes in it. You will only stop. When you finally realized you're not having him anymore. This is why I hold on till now. ☺ ok enough said I love you all sexy people reading my blog. Send me formspring questions. ☺

Smiles all over

Hi there. Rarely updating this place of mine about my life. Photos below cuz I'm updating thru my phone
So here basically today(19/5/12) was spent quite fruitful w my family and bf !!
Firstly bf came over to woodlands to meet me before heading down to sengkang to check his NITENDO DS3........ Cuz Cwp was oos... I don't uds why guys can be so fanatic over such things .. Cuz i don't play all these so yeah.... Hard for me to uds why... But me being a sweet and kind and everything nice gf(LOL SELFPRAISE) acc him to sengkang just to buy his Nitendo. We camwhored on bus!! Bf got a sexy red one with sparkles or bling bling which I called them when I described it to him... LOLOL. I swear I was damn ahsoh I was like dw black la. Red so chio got bling bling somemore. Then bf was arguing and say black also got bling bling .. LOL but too bad so sad the shop no black. HAHAHAH. I told him I wanted eat curry chicken.. Aft he made the purchase and he told me we go eat after withdraw money.. LOL. end up he forget.... #suckstobeme

And .. We headed down to river vale plaza which is located at kangkar station... Cuz he Wna Dl his Nitendo games ... So we went down and ended up he can't do it... Cuz Dk don't hv what r4 card ... Then we headed to 7/11 , wanted to buy some drinks but ended up buying waffles .. Something quite stupid/paiseh happened...

Me spotting some hotdog samples outside 7/11... But there's no one there ...
So I got my waffles..
Then while waiting ... I saw the auntie come back. From young .. My mom always ask me go take sample try.. So I without hesitating. Gehsiao walked out .. So bf followed me .. LOL. he Dk what I was planning to do.
So here's the conv ... Btw auntie , me , bf...

Auntie : hello want to try some hot dog ?? Very nice one.
Me : *my mind : YES YES YES YES I FCKING WANT IT* er.. (then I stared at bf)
Bf: you want right.....
Me: huh .. No la... (when my heart alr drooling for it becuz I'm hungry... Lol)
Auntie: this one got cheese got pork got beef!!
Bf: give her pork one!
Auntie cut two small piece from hotdog. She cheebye sia .. One piece bigger one piece smaller. She give me small one. She give big one to my bf. she think I never see... HAHAHAH.
THEN THE AWKWARD PART CAME.
Bf: NICE LEA!
Me: yup..!
Auntie: now got promotion !!
Bf: I feel like buying ..
Me: see you lo~~~( while walking away to 7/11 to get my waffles)
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HAHAHA SO I LEFT THE REJECTING PART TO BF CUZ I TOO PS TO REJECT AUNTIE HAHAHAH.
And then ....
I saw how much peanut butter & chocolate. They bua.... "a lot" of it on our pancakes .... And I was like. Completely mortified.... LOL OK IM SAD AND SHOCK. Cuz my house downstairs give a lot of peanut butter and chocolate or toppings ........... But this 7/11 at river vale plaza ... Definitely... Is .. A fucking niaopeh(stingy pussy LOL JK) and I was complaining to my bf and he keeps laughing at me.... And he even ask me go scold them la. HAHAHAHA. siao. I humji don't dare....

So after all these weird things.. We cabbed over to sister's place at punggol. So.. Saw her new foster dog and as well as her two others dogs. One of them used to bully my bf. becuz bf say he Wna be gentle Infront of my sister/family or something. LOLOL YUCKS. JK<3 I love you b!!!! BTP I was busy trying to get my sister's dog to play w me and sadly they just don't want to play w me. Then bf say.... "lai I play w you"..... Then he continued w his ds3... LOL I SOUNDED SO CHILDISH YAY IM GNA GET JUDGED !!! LOL but idgaf tho...
Helped out w my sister cooking a little ... And also made the foster dog to get used to me. Bf fell asleep on the sofa again... And I snapped a photo of him. HAHAHAH. He don't know bout it tho.. Until he read this post... hehe. Woke him up for dinner aft mommy arrived shortly !!!!! Ate dinner and nua Infront of the sofa w mommy and bf and my bf fell asleep shortly aft dinner on the sofa again.. And mommy asked me why my bf so good at sleeping.. LOL. then woke him up around 8plus 9!! Went to compass point w mommy and sister and bf.
Accompanied bf to get his Pokemon black then met up w mommy and sis again then heading home !!! Bf went home too ! Lé sigh. But it's alright since I'm also seeing him on Sunday to celebrate my ahma's birthday ^^ love seeing my bf everyday !!! He makes me happy ^^ even tho sometimes he might makes me sad and makes me cry but deep down I know he cares and love still^^ *insert many kissy* hehe.

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Hey baby I think you forget. Upcoming 26th.. Will be our 10th month ever since we first met. Surprised not that I still rmb? I think you must hv let it slipped out of your head. Hehe. I want you to know . It was never a wrong choice to let you enter my life be a part of me and let you know me. Becuz right now I'm enjoying every moment. You were always there. Just like how a best friend would do. You love me always and forever treating me right like how a boyfriend should be ! You've done a great job in being my bf(best friend & boy friend) I'm so glad to hv you in my life. I swear. I love you always my dear xoxo !!
(PICTURES TIME)

It's all entirely for you.

Hey dear, We've known each other for going 10 month plus.
Surprisingly, we barely know each other for a month, we could ended up being together for 8 months.
My dear, isn't this great.

the first photo we took together remember ? ok maybe the second but was the first photo we took tgt and posted on the net.
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It's amazing how we both never really intended to settle down, and ended up being together for more than a month. It's quite a shocking news for friends around you, and sweetly, we passed our first month, without any arguments, amazing? Yes it is.

The second time we meet up after the first photo(you fetched me off work) , you accompanied me to collect my camera. Back then, we ain't even together, yet you hugged me, sing towards my ear. (Well kinda expected such actions from the reputation you've back then :p) It was sweet, because in my memories, no guy done that to me before. I still clearly remember which song you sang, Favourite girl, one time, all the love songs from justin bieber.. LOL.

On the 8th sept 2011, we got together, no one expected us to go on for a month, neither did both of us..
But first month was such a breeze for us. No quarrels , no nothing, just you me and all those honey coated words. Man I nearly got diabetes back then(JK)

Remember all these? those sweet talks which you did mean it and proved it, those teasing we have with one another, knowing we won't get mad at one another.

 

USS, Our first month, you held on to me, you gave me tight hugs, these all made my fear gone and gave me courage to continue those rides.
You held on to me, didn't let me go.
You assured me, told me nothing will be wrong.

I still keep all those screenshots in my phone.. can't bear to delete any of those, even during our break up period.
Shortly after our 2months, we started having this massive arguments.. causing us to break up.
That period.. was so so so unbearable, I'm so glad you are back and not leaving.
We really got back together on the 8th of december 2011, our 3rd month.

You're bald already.. because you gotta go in army, but now you grow a bit hair back you tell me you're a man. haha, Yup you man, a man who behaves like a kid when nobody's around to me, a man who loves me for all my goods and bads, who stayed by me every time I needed him, who always worry for me, scared I not enough cash, scared I'll feel bored, scared this scared that, a bit ah gua, but i like. Because it shows me that you care for me, because you're always acting so serious and only playful to your friends, acting like you don't care about me, when you actually do.That's why I'm so happy whenever you're tensed up all over me, and some times you'll even scold me and ask me to stop making you worry.
I keep doing stupid things because...

No one expected you to care for me so much so much.
Because you don;t show unless something happen.

When we argue, you compromise, you give in, you apologize. You even promised me to watch your temper.. All those texts could just bring tears down my face, making me feel all heart wrenched.
My dear, do you even realised how much how much you even mean to me.
8th months, to others it's easy but to us, it's not. We been through it, together already , for 8 chapters, let's not let the story end, I know we can. Because every time you told me "I Love You", they gave me reasons to believe that we could actually be together, forever. I know forever doesn't really exist, but if it really do, I hope we could make it, together.
I love you. Always have, always will.
& You'll always be the only one who gets so closed to my heart, my everything and me.

I only want to love you.